The Sexbiography of the Erotica Novelist

The Beginning of Erotica Novelist (Part 3)

"You may kissed the bride-"

Then Phoenix happily kissed Katarina while everybody cheering and giving them a shower of blessings to the newly wed.

While I'm still here, sitting next to Jared and in a few distances I could see Zachary and Scarlett joining the crowd cheering the couple. Gwapong gwapo si Zachary sa tux nya habang si Scarlett naman ay napaka ganda sa ayos nya. Para silang 'next-to-be-wed' couple. Kulang nalang sila mismo ay nasa altar. They all seems to be happy couple.

"Mukhang ako nalang ang magiging sponsor sa mag barkada ah!-" he joked.

"Anung ikaw lang? Pati rin ako-" nakangiting banat ko.

"Sus- may boyfriend ka nga diba?" He smirked.

I deeply breathe "Pare parehas kayo ng mindset! Wala akong boyfriend nuh!-" pataray na sabi ko.

"Weh?! Eh bat sabi ni Zach, boyfriend mo daw un sinama nuon sa club?" Tanong niya.

"Sus naniwala ka naman dun sa tsismis nun!-" putol ko.

"Eh wala naman kaming nabalitaang na link sayo eh! Akala ko nga noon nakuha mo na loob ni Zach. Dahil hindi naman ganyan si Zach sa ibang babae nakikilala nyan, tsaka bukod tangi ka lang na naiiba ang itsura-"

Mabilis akong tumingin ng matalim sa kanya. Halatang pinipigilan nya pa magsalita, palagay ko nasindak sya sa pagtingin ko.

"Eh... pero... one of the boys type ka, kaya naging magkaibigan kayo ni Zach." pambawi nya.

I deeply breathe out. Probably Jared was right. It's just my personality that Zach 'liked me as his friend' and he wants me to be in his circle. And it's impossible for me to move on in that level.

Para hindi naman ako mahalata ni Jared pilit kong ngumiti nalang at binalewala ko ang sinabi nyang yun.

In all times I flashed my happy friend look. In this way I probably found peace within me. Masaya na akong makitang ganito ang sitwasyon namin. Everyone have their own 'love' especially si Zach- he definitely knows what he needed. And that's Scarlett.

Like the old times, lagi nalang ako naiiwan sa isang sulok habang pinagmamsdan ang ibang tao na masayang nagsasayaw, kahit paano naaliw din ako sa kanila. Sa nakikita k okay Zachary at Scarlett halos matatalbugan pa nila ang bagong kasal. While Jared on the other hand got he's eye on some gal.

I don't think Zach needs me.

I stood up and went to Phoenix and his wife. I bid my goodbye to the newly couple. At first they are both hesitant. Mag gagabi na at magpasabay nalang ako sa barkada. But I urge myself not to, ayoko kasi ng nakakaabala. At the end they let me go and wished for me to a safe trip.

Dahan dahan akong umalis sa lugar na yun at tumuloy na ako sa byahe pauwi ng mag isa. I try to convince myself that it was good to be this way. I want to move on lalo na nakikita ko ang sarili ko na paulit ulit akong masasaktan kapag ipinagpilitan ko ang nararamdaman ko kay Zach.

It's probably the best way to his friend.

When i got in my apartment, agad kong nakita si Jessica sa labas ng apartment ko. Nakangiti ito at masaya nya akong binati. Nagulat akong madami syang dalang beer at iba pang snacks.

"Ano to?-" hindi ko maiwasang magtanong sa kanya.

Hindi nya na ako inantay sumagot. Lumungkot bigla ang mukha nya at nagsimula na itong umiyak.