When In Paris

Chapter 9

CRYSTAL

I can't believe I actually said it.

I can't believe I finally said 'I love you' to Justin. I don't really know how I brought myself to say it because I really struggled with saying it to him all those years ago when I first knew I loved him. But that wasn't the case the morning years later - I didn't struggle one bit telling Justin how much I love him.

I don't know why it was so easy this time to tell him, I guess I'm starting to believe and accept Justin's reason for leaving me. Of course, I'm not forgiving him that easily for putting me through that pain but yesterday was a good place to start and we can finally explore this side of our already strong relationship on our terms and without all these obstacles getting in the way this time.

Speaking of that the events of yesterday and last night were such a blur to me. I don't even know what really went down after I walked out of Justin's house after he told me the truth to leaving me all those years ago. But from seeing how red and puffy my eyes were the morning I definitely cried a lot in front of Justin, which makes me cringe a bit at how embarrassing that must have been for him and if I could've stopped crying, I would have but I was having one of my normal breakdowns where I can't stop it as much as I want to and just have to let it out.

It's funny thinking about it because yesterday was both my worst and best day. It brought me so much pain but also brought me so much joy. But despite everything that happened in just those 24 hours, I wouldn't change a single thing about yesterday despite how much it scares me because I know for a fact, I wouldn't be I am right now – in the car with Justin.

As I look over at Justin driving, I can't help but smile. I'm the happiest I've been in years and it's all thanks to this man I've always loved.

I wish I could spend the rest of the day with Justin now that we starting to be in a good place. But as much as I want to I can't. I have other responsibilities and things I have to sort out which sucks but knowing Justin and I have all the time in the world makes it less painful to leave him. But not that it makes it any easier and it makes me more determined than before to make the most of the time we have left.

"What are you smiling at, Beautiful?" he asks when we stop at a traffic light.

I look at him with a smile. "You", I say then I reach over and start kissing his neck.

"Beautiful, I'm driving," he says with a smile.

"Yeah, I know, but we've stopped," I say smiling.

I continue kissing his neck as we wait and then I sit back down in my seat when the light changes. Justin takes one of his hands off the wheel and he places it hand on my thigh.

I smile at him before he returns a smile and then turns his attention back to the road.

The whole drive to my house, Justin hand stays on my thigh and the immediate butterflies appear in my stomach. I shake my head because Justin knows what he's doing to me.

His hand starts traveling more and more up as we get closer and closer to my house and where Justin will drop me off and it's not until the last minute till I can't resist anymore. I immediately take my seatbelt off and straddle him after he stops and parks the car.

Justin wastes no time and starts kissing my neck making sure he doesn't leave an inch untouched.

I pull away in disbelief when I feel him bite me. "Oh, you didn't, are you trying to get me in trouble? I ask him. "You can't leave a love bite on me minutes before I have a talk with my Mum."