The boiling water hits my body in a soothing manner. The bathroom is now filled with lovely, refreshing fragrances which dance in my lungs every time I inhale. I rotate the leaver and all is left to comfort me is warm steam.
I step out and wrap my towel around my waist, following with brushing my teeth and combing my wet hair into a more decent style. I attempt to forget everything that's happened today so I can finally get some rest, just for one night.
I leave my foggy bathroom to find Jay rolled on his left side. He turns as soon as he feels the warmness of the steam hit his back.
"Hey! How's your shower?"
He softly spoke, sitting up and giving me a weak smile.
I approach my bed to sit next to him.
"Good, good."
I nod.
"You look down, is everything alright?"
I question, I can sense something's wrong.
Jay avoided eye-contact for a while.
"Of course."
He stares towards my wall where my LED lights were on, they reflect in his eyes.
I place my hand on his cold, pale face, gently moving him towards me. I analyse his eyes.. those sad eyes...
"Jay...you can tell me anything that's on your mind, you know that right? I'm not judgemental at all."
I whisper softly.
He grips my hand, hopefully my warmth will spread to him because he's stone cold...
"I've received multiple messages not too long ago, the photograph has spread everywhere- and that's not even my biggest worry..."
I tilt my head, wanting to know more.
"My 'friends' have removed me from group chats, blocked me on all social media, and deleted my phone number, I'm not even sure why. My mother and step-father have seen the photograph and have completely disowned me and I don't know what they'll do, let's just say, they aren't very supportive parents. People I know all hate my guts, we're receiving death threats Harvey, and it's all my fault."
No, it's not his fault. I can tell Jay wants to burst out crying, but he manages to keep it together. I devastatingly watch all the text messages appear on his phone, his eyes really water now.
"Therefore I should jump off a cliff, just like people have told me all my life!"
He threw his phone in anger denting my wall, but I didn't care about that, I care about his feelings more.
"Well, if you're jumping, I'll jump right beside you," I chuckle, trying to get a laugh out of him, "That way, I can escape from my depression." I whisper quietly and he luckily doesn't hear me. Shut it Harvey!
"Besides, you're not going anywhere.
You are mine now. I will do my all to protect you, you'll see."
I play with his curls.
"You truly are an amazing boy, Harv. I'm the luckiest guy on earth to have you. But listen, it's utterly dangerous out there. Out there is the real world, we don't stand a chance."
I sigh, furrowing my eyebrows.
"Well, if you talk like that then we definitely don't."
It's been five minutes since our small argument. After pacing around my room I finally change into some random clothes and get back in bed with Jay, we both stay silent for a while. I gaze upon the ceiling, a single tear runs down my face. Jay, still on his side silently watching me, brushes it off with his warm hand. I'm glad he's warm again.
"Don't cry, I can't bare to see you cry."
He whispers in a soft tone, still stroking my face.
"What if something terrible happens, what if I lose you and never see you again?"
More tears escape from the thought, but Jay quickly wipes them away.
"Enough 'what if' Harvs, we'll be okay, you have to put your trust in me. I will figure it out - somehow."
He sadly sighs, not sounding too confident.
Jay begins to doze off, his arms surround my chest, I feel protected. However I remain awake. As I watch him sleep, I start to overthink things.
"Saskia takes a sneaky photograph of us which everyone has seen, my mother has left home and have no idea where she is, Jay's 'friends' and family have completely disowned him... what's possibly next?"
I quietly sigh, rolling my bloodshot eyes.
"Well- at least I have this cuddly bear to sleep with tonight."
I quietly kiss his forehead, lean my head on his chest and attempt to sleep, listening to his heartbeat for comfort.
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