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Pt3.-Forever~Bucky Barnes final part

***Heellooo,so this is the last part of my first Marvel imagine,I hope you will like it :') It's longish but I really tried..





Y/N pov:

Ten days.
It's been ten days,but for me it feels like 10 months. Each and every day longer than previous one. Doctor said I have to stay in that hospital room for at least few months ,but I think I could somehow reassure him otherwise. It sucks ,really,that I will always need to have someone by my side for at least whole year.. I thought about what others said to me. Part of me thinks they are right ; they care about me, I am as important as they are ,they won't give up on me easily. But then there is this part of me,even tho now it's smaller than the pervious one, that still makes me confused and think that they are still nice towards me just because I know too much about this superhero universe and everything until they find a way to get rid of me... Anyway ,I kinda cleared the mess in my head since that day. I hate this arm. I hate it. But I have to live with it. Better like this than without it . Even if it takes me few years to learn how to shoot using this arm,or doing any activities,it is more effective with two arms than only one....

Bucky's pov:

It has been ten days. First few days were the hardest because she refused to do anything. Y/N was just there..in her bed physically but her thoughts took her away . She would just start screaming and throwing things. She is strong,and could take all the physical pain. But it's her emotions and mental pain that she couldn't take. But eventually ,she calmed down. Still,she didn't talk much but I bet in her head the longest talks were led. I am sure that she feels better now than ten days ago. She will need time to completely stand up on her own feet. She won't be the same Y/N that we knew,but we will be here no matter what to prove her that we won't leave her no matter what happens. We kinda got closer. I would always keep myself away because I didn't want to scare her away because of my hand. I know she doesn't mind it but ,in my head it was something I couldn't get over . But now that she also has it , I want to show her that living with it is not that bad..

Y/N's pov:

They were all coming through the days,but Bucky didn't leave at all. He only leaves to shower,change,and bring me food. It actually means so much,but I don't really want to show it . We have always called him 'Metal guy' but now I feel bad for it.. He was always the quiet one and one who was standing behind everyone else because he felt like he doesn't fit in. Why? Because of his arm.Because of everything HYDRA did to him. Now I can feel what he feels for so long..And I really regret every damn time I was mean.  
"James?..Are you sleeping?" 
He opened his eyes and with sleepy look in his eyes,he looked at me :,,No,no I am not .Do you need something?,,
I moved under my blanket to face him : " You really must be bored. Y-you should go down to the gym. I mean,that's what you do most of the time so I -I thought you want to go now."
He looked at me ,confused for a moment and then spoke :"No. I mean,it's 8p.m I don't want to leave in case you need something and don't want to wake up others "
I was silent for few moments. He was still looking at me,waiting for me to say something. Or not,I am not really sure...But I didn't want to give up,he was by my side for ten days and he needs to rest from me. (Wow.Rest from me?Sounds wrong..) 
"No I insist I will be okay don't worry. And also JARVIS can call you if I need something.... Really" I added with a soft smile.
,,Are you really sure? I mean...yeah I guess you are right..but I will be back by 9 so...If-If you need something please call .,, 
 
Bucky's pov:

I was looking at her.I don't know what's the reason behind her wanting me to leave for some time. Is it really because she wants me to rest,and kinda get away from everything,and everyone knows my way for that is going to the gym and taking out all my emotions there. Or she wanted to get rid of me? I am not sure,I don't think so. Yes,she was mean sometimes but I don't blame her. I pushed everyone away when they came too close,when they crossed the line where I couldn't control my emotions and was scared to hurt them.I was scared,and that's the reason. But last few days,she changed.She didn't call me 'Metal guy' not even once...She calls me James. No one calls me James,except for her now. God,I have to clear my mind and get rid of this feeling.  As I was about to leave,she spoke again.
"Bucky.....I am..I-I am very sorry for calling you Metal arm..I really regret it."
I turned around and saw her staring at her feet.I could see sadness in her eyes.She really means it.
,,Hey. It's alright.No need to apologize,I don't mind it ,really.Don't think about it.,, and I left.
I left in that moment because I didn't want it to grow bigger.Or did I?I hope she will fall asleep before I come back..