Marvel imagines~

I am a horrible person-Tony Stark

I was standing impatiently behind the stage. 
He was one hour late.

-I know he never gets to the meetings,conferences or anything like that on time. He thinks they need to wait him. Narcissist. His ego was so high above him. Ugh.
I tried keeping everything under control,I went there and talked to everyone from table to table,just to keep the customers satisfied until he finally comes.

-Half more hour and he is still not there.
Now I was angry.

-I left the auditorium and made my way towards the elevator. Everything was silent here.Only thing you could hear was the sound of my heels touching the marble floor with each step I took.
"JARVIS please take me to Tony."
,,Yes ma'am.,, and the elevator doors closed. I checked myself in the mirror. I wonder how,but everything was still in place.
I am not a person for dresses ,make-up and all that but for him I did this.All of this.To help him.
I would rather be in my pajamas now ,than in this long red dress with back cut out,golden heels and golden hair accessories. But doesn't matter now.What matters is -Where on Earth is he and why is he so late?
For a moment my anger vanished and was replaced with worry.What if something is wrong?But,wouldn't he tell me? The elevator door opened to reveal empty hallway that connects all our rooms.
He was still in his room? 
I walked over and knocked.

-Nothing.

-"Tony?" I knocked again.
"Tony?I know you are there?Open the door before I have to break in." I tried opening the door-unlocked.
All lights were shut.The room was in complete darkness. Only touch of light was coming through the huge windows from the moon and ,that pale moonlight helped me see his figure sitting by the bed.On the floor. I quickly made my way towards him,but his words stopped me :
"No.Y/N stay away." he said,not lifting his head from his hands.
I stopped in place. What? Am I scared? I can't be. Watching my love like this,not having idea what's going on,I can't be scared.I have nothing to be scared of.No matter what,Tony wouldn't hurt me. What am I even thinking of. 

I slowly made my way to him. I was now standing in front of him. 
"Tony please look up.What's wrong?" . He didn't reply so I crouched to level his head.
"Tony.Love.Please,you know you can tell me." 
But still nothing.
I slowly put my hands on both sides of his head and shift it.He was crying.
"T-Tony? "
He snapped his head from my hands and burried it in his knees. 
"Y/N I told you to leave me alone.Go.Tell them I can't make it tonight.Or tomorrow.This week.Nor next." 

I looked in shock. It must be serious,since...he is crying...... I took off my heels and threw them across the room ,and I sat next to him. 
"Tony.." I took his head in my hands again. His face in level of mine. Still crying,avoiding my eyes.
"Tony...whatever it is ,we can fix it. Together. Please tell me what is it. I can't help you until you tell me what is wrong?" 
He finally looked at me.But there was something in his eyes,something telling me it's different this time.It's really serious.
"I. I am a horrible person Y/N. How can I go out,talk in front all those people,in front of cameras,in front of the world ,knowing that families of people who died because of  ME are watching it. Watching me living my 'perfect' life while they are still in pain. Live,knowing that my weapons are killing so many innocent people. I-I can't. I just-just can't." he said ,burrying head in  his knees again ,letting a loud sob escape. 
It broke my heart.Every word was full of pain.Every tear was full of pain. It hurt so bad to see him like this. 
"Tony...I..I don't know what to say.It's true that those weapons are killing people...But you know that's not why you constructed them . You didn't build those weapons to kill innocent people,but to help the world fight the evil,sick ones." 
"There is -there is no escape for me from this . I don't know what to do I am so damn lost Y/N" 
" Love.There is,there is always way to fix things,only if you really want to. It will be hard ,it will cause a chaos,but you can stop manufacturing weapons.You can carry on with making technology,vehicles,armour....We will find a way. Find an exit. Please don't torture yourself like this." I said in a soft voice.
For few moments it was silent. None of us was talking. Just sounds of him sobbing.
I looked at him ; his brown hair messier than ever,one of his old pajamas on him,and I knew his chestnut brown eyes that he was hiding from me now were all red from crying.And I spoke again :
"Tony.Please look at me."  I cupped his face and brought it close to mine.
"We have to overcome everything that's tearing us. Come out of this stronger.  Whatever you do,I still choose you ,without doubt . I was always afraid of coming close to you because I thought you will just push me away because I am just another woman.But you changed with that. This past year that we are together ,I am the happiest person on this world and beyond. You proved that you are not the same as you were before,you changed for better. And you made me feel loved ,and you were there for me through my worst moments. I will be there for you also. Because that is love. And I will never give up on you.On us. Will never go away when you tell me to.I will only pull you even closer. " 
He looked up at me. He looked me in the eyes. 
" What did I do to deserve you? I can't think of anything now....but thank you. Thank you for being here. For staying . You could have go, you had all reasons to leave me but you still stick with me. Thank you so much, For making life easier when it went hard. " 
I pulled him into hug ,he put his hair on my chest  and quietly sobbed for some time. I kissed his head and stroked his hair. And we stayed like that. I didn't want to move,to leave this moment in the past.  
-Even now,when he looks like a complete mess. No expensive suits,cameras,cheering,wine,just the two of us. I love him. Because the most beautiful things can't be seen or touched ,but felt with heart.
 And I feel it,every time I am close to him.