Good Girl Secrets

Chapter 12 - I'm Sorry

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I've decided that I was going to tell Stephen when I was ready. He needs to know because when I move out this house, his ass is paying child support.

When I arrive at school, Theo asks me if I wanted to hang out with him and the guys. I say yes   (of course, duh).

I haven't encountered Tara and her minions and it kind of scares me.

What if she's planning something?

Theo and I went inside his car after school and drove to his house. The guys came a couple seconds later and the usual happens. Mikey and Ace playing video games and Blake yelling at them.

Theo and I were sitting next to each other on the couch. He was on his phone and I was watching Ace and Mikey play.

A couple minutes pass by when I feel the urge to throw up. I instantly cover my mouth with my hand and run to the bathroom.

I open the toilet top and throw up.

I felt my hair being pushed back and I see it's Theo.

My eyes widen.

This is so embarrassing! I don't want him seeing me like this.

"I know." He says softly.

My already widen eyes widen even more, if that's even possible, and I stand up. I felt the tears already in my eyes from the thought. I rinsed my mouth in the sink before talking.

I tried talking, but a sob came out instead. By now the tears that have welled up in my eyes, fell out. Theo hugged me and starting rubbing my back. 

"I'm sorry." I said. "I'm so so sorry." I continued on crying.

"No need to be sorry. Why are you sorry anyway?" Theo says softly.

"You must think I'm a whore." I said, feeling ashamed. 

"I don't and I'll never think that." He said.

I shook my head and wiped the tears off my face. "Thanks,umm, I'm going to go home." I said.

He nodded his head and we walked out the bathroom.

"Bye guys." I said, to the rest of the boys.

"Your leaving? Already?" Ace asked, pouting.

I chuckled. "Yeah, I got to go." I said.

I walked out the door and walked home.

When I got home, I sighed.

I can't believe Theo knows. He knows that I'm pregnant. Another sigh flew out my lips as I walked up the stairs. It's been a couple of weeks and I've decided I should go to an OB/GYN.

I decided to go to the local library that wasn't that far from where I live and search up some nearest doctors for me to go to.

I headed out the door and started my walk to the library. I went to the computer section and searched up what I had to search up.

I was very committed to this pregnancy. I will love this baby with all my heart no matter what he or she's father is. I'm planning on running away and to the town that was 2 hours away from here.

Away from Stephen.

I already loved this baby growing inside of me with all my heart. I searched up some baby names and after an hour I found the the ones that I liked.

If I'm having a girl, I'll name her Stella.

And if I'm having a boy I'll name him Jace.

I scheduled and appointment with an OB/GYN and it was for Saturday morning. I was nervous and excited because I was going to get an ultrasound. I was going to hear my baby's heart beat.

A Couple Days Later...

Ace, Blake, and Mikey already knew about my pregnancy.

I guess Theo told them.

I didn't mind because I was going to tell them anyways. I just hope they won't gossip and expose me in front of the whole school. My stomach was still flat, but as I was counting down the days I thought about Stephen coming home next week and a belly becoming to show. The hoodies I already wear to school will have to be bigger.

Today was Saturday and it was 7 a.m. My appointment was at 10. I got dressed and when the clock hit 9:30, I walked out the house. I didn't tell Theo nor neither of the boys about today. I didn't want them to think they need to be here and do everything for me.

I arrived exactly at 10 and when I got there I was greeted by the doctor.

"Hello, Emerald?" She said, making sure she called the right person.

I nodded my head. "Yes."

"Alright, right this way." The doctor said with a smile. I followed her into a room. She told me to lay down/sit up, it's one of those chairs.

"Ready for your first ultra sound?" The doctor asked me. "I'm Dr. Nancy by the way."

"Nice to meet you Dr.Nancy." I said, sticking out my hand for her to shake.

She shook my hand with a smile. "It's nice to meet you too." She said. "Let's get started."

"So, your 17?" She asked me.

I lower down my head, feeling ashamed. "Yeah." I said.

"And your still in school?" She asked.

"Yes."

"Do you know who the father is?"

"Yes."

"Are you planning on dropping out of school because of your preganancy?"

"I don't know yet."

"Ok." She put down her clipboard and rose my shirt up. She put on a cold gel on my stomach and she got the ultra-sound machine ready.

She maneuvered the stick thingy around my stomach.

"Your going to look over here." She said.

I nodded and then I heard a beat.

A heart beat.

I smiled in content.

"Your still pretty early so I can't determined the sex of the baby yet." Dr.Nancy explained. I nodded.

"Do you know how early you are?" She asked me.

"I believe 3 weeks or 2. I'm not sure." I said.

"Alright, I'll schedule you an appointment when your at 16 weeks. By then you will know if it's a boy or a girl." 

"Ok." I said.

I left the building a couple minutes later and walked back home.