My One-Shot Stories

Forgetting the Past

A/N: Thanks sa mga nakakapansin nitong compilation ko. Pero sana makapagvote or comment naman kayo. Let me feel your presence. Though alam ko naman na lame ang stories ko dito. But comments and votes are super duper highly appreciated =)

Warning! xD: This story is a non-dialogue story. So kung ayaw mong magbasa ng puro emotions lang, maybe this is not for you. Actually, I did it for me. I really need to get over it. So kahit di niyo basahin. It's okay. =)

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Forgetting the Past

Why can't I even forget you? It's been 4 years since you've left me. We didn't even get the chance to see each other. But, why are you still staying on my mind?

Hindi ko alam kung desperate lang talaga ako or whatever. Pero bakit ganun? No matter what I do, you just keep on flashing in my mind. Bakit ba ang daming bagay na nagpapaalala sa'yo? I want to stop thinking of you. I want to stop remembering the past, with you.

The chance to meet. Yeah, we didn't got the chance. But you let me feel that you're sincere. In all the things that you do, in all the things that you showed me. Oh how I wished we met, even just before you disappeared.

You disappeared without even saying a word. You left me hanging. And much worse, you even let me fall for you. But you didn't catch me. How dumb I was? How idiot can I be? Why stupidity exist? It's because I exist.

My friends tell me to move on. Get over you. I tried harder. I did try my best. But everywhere, I see your name. Everywhere, there are things that reminds me of you. Everywhere, our song plays. Everywhere, I keep on remembering the past. 

I'm an idiot. Oo, tanggap ko na yun. Know why? Kasi hanggang ngayon hinihintay pa din kita. Gusto kong malaman ang reason mo kung bakit ka umalis. Iniisip ko na babalik ka. I even asked for signs if you'll be back again. Stupid right? Or am I just being in love?

Paano kung bumalik siya, anong gagawin mo? That's what they kept on asking me. And my answer is I don't know. But deep inside me, I have an answer. Tatanggapin ko siya. I'll give him another chance. Yun ay kung pwede pa. Pero kung hindi, sorry na lang ako.

Umaasa pa ako. Yes. Umaasa pa ako up until now I'm writing this. Wala akong masabihan na kahit sino. Neither my bestfriend. Maybe I'm just to scared of what they'll say to me. Takot ako na sabihin nila na itigil ko na tong kahibangan ko. Takot ako na masabihang tanga dahil takot akong mapahiya. 

Questions. Madami katanungan ang gusto kong masagot. Pero walang makakasagot. Kamusta na kaya siya? Asan na kaya siya? Buhay pa kaya siya? Gusto pa kaya niya ako? Mahal pa kaya niya ako? 

Anger. Galit nga ba ako sa kanya? No. I'm not angry. Masama siguro ang loob, pwede. Pero hindi ako galit. Well, dapat ba na magalit ako sa kanya? Ni hindi nga naging kami. Niligawan lang niya ako. He never contacted me for this past years, neither his friends. Wala kaming balita sa kanya. Pare-pareho din kami naghihintay ng balita. So wala akong karapatang magalit. Maybe he has his reasons.

Reasons. Isa yan sa mga dahilan kung bakit hinihintay ko pa din siya. I need to know his side. I need to know what happened. I want to know why he left me. We didn't have proper closure. He didn't told me he'll stop courting me. It's like when I woke up, he's gone.

Forget him. That's what I told myself everytime I sleep. But, I just can't do it. Nababaliw na siguro ako, oo siguro nga. Until now, siya pa din ang laman ng diary ko. And I was so hurt while reading my last entries. The moments that I spend with him. My sister said, punitin ko na yung diary ko. Pero kahit na punitin ko, the moments are stuck in my mind.

The song. Bakit ba nagkaroon pa ko ng kanta sa kanya? Yan tuloy, nagiging pangasar na sa akin yung kanta. Pero kahit saan ako mapunta, mapa-jeep, fx, taxi, trike. I'm hearing those songs. Bakit ba hindi pa din yun naluluma? Hayy.

Will he be back? Does he still likes me? Does he still love me? Will he continue courting him? Will I accept him again? Will I give him another chance? What will I do when he came back? Will I be happy? Will I be sad? Magiging kami kaya?

Hindi ko alam. I don't hold the future. Only God knows. How I wish na bumalik siya. Na sana maging kami pa in the future. 

Siguro nga pagpapakatanga din yung ginagawa ko. But what can I do? Mahal ko eh. Yeah, mahal ko siya. And hindi ko alam kung magrereject na naman ba ako ng iba kasi I'm still waiting for him.

After you read this, the author is trying to move on. She'll do her best to forget everything about her past. And by the time na magkita sila, they'll be good friends. I know it'll hurt her, but it will pass. Time heals all wounds. Time will come that she'll just laugh when she read this again.

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A/N: Ang drama ko right? Pero wala akong masabihan eh. Kaya kay wattpad ko na lang shinare ang problem ko. Sa mga makakabasa nito, please encourage me. I need to do the last paragraph. This is my first major heartbreak. But I can do this. </3 Y__Y