I applied for a few jobs today and I'll get applications Monday for more. I have to look at college, I'm gonna be a senior this year, gross. I'm going to a community college for the first two years and then uni for social work after that. I have two choices. Pick somewhere in Illinois and stay with my parents until uni, they're happy. Or go back to Michigan with my boyfriend (assuming we make it this year), and go where ever I want for uni. My parents won't be upset with what I choose, as long as I'm happy with my choice. I don't want them to be upset or anything. I'm not sure what to do. It's all so scary. My boyfriend is being supportive, which actually means a lot to me. We have our off days sometimes but since it's long distance I don't think much of it, there's already so much strain on our relationship. I'll just have to see what this year brings.
I've been really depressed lately and I'm not 100% sure why. Part of it is doing long distance, part is moving and leaving all my friends, that I'm sure. It seems like there's too much going on in my head though. I go to a new therapist soon so hopefully it'll get better.
Tonight I had to tell my boyfriend to go to sleep instead of staying up to make sure I'm okay. I'm glad he wants to stay up with me but he'll complain so much if I let him stay up too long.
Also, Panic! At The Disco just released a new album. What. It's definitely different. I like it a lot. 10/10. However, I'm irked that Dallon left but nothing can make him stay, he wants to go his own way and I don't blame him.
Night,
J
