im not even sure how long its been, wow.
this is my longest relationship.. strained long distance
how does that even happen
i know for a fact that i love him
id do almost anything for him i could potentially be in love in the future
he frustrates me to no end
we have differing beliefs
and some of it isnt very healthy
but hes mine and i really do love him
he never really believes that i love him
he told me he doesnt feel
but that's okay coz i feel enough for the both of us
its not exactly good
but we'll deal for now
i cant see him leaving me for that
i have fucked up a lot and it tears at my heart because he doesnt deserve that shit from me
i should be building him up, not tearing him down
ig love hurts though, right?
he says he cares a lot about me
i have my doubts some days though
i have been struggling a lot recently with just getting through the day in one piece and some days he helps but others he makes it worse, i cant expect anything really but i always seem to
me being doesnt always help but he's gotten better at reading me when im little
he's gotten some of my habits down, which could be bad, but oh well
ive sorta went straight into this
balls to the wall type shit
its dangerous to go all in like this
but im prepared to get hurt
by him anyway
we're sorta in a fight right now, it happens kind of a lot
ive found Yungblud
he's cute and his accent is reallly cool
he speaks out against some political issues and i agree with a lot of it
i recommend
xoxo
