LOVE SO SWEET ( on hold )

chapter 33

Fanny POV

I though i was too late to save Cherryl, buti na lang nagawan ng paraan ni Kurt. I saw them dancing as if they own the world. Alam ko tama si Michael, no mattee what i do, no matter how i tried to save her, time will come Cherryl will be shattered, pero shit i hate the idea! Fcvk! Cherryl is not ready ! Damn it ! The party is not yet done but i need to go somewhere , somewhere far away from him, baka kaag nakita ko pa sya , di ko na mapigilan ang sarili ko , matuluyan na sya. 

" Fanny let's talk " and to my surprise nasa harapan ko na bigla si Michael. 

" wala tayong dapat pang pag usapan " tinalikuran ko na si Michael pero pinigilan nya ako and he hug me , damn ! 

" about us, Fanny lets talk about us. What happen between 5 years ago. I knew we were both young, but i swear i loveyou i alway do and i always will " Michael said. I push him away and slap him hard 

" damn you Michael ! damn you ! damn you ! I fvcking hate you ! FYI there's no us ! And what happen 5 years ago matagal ko nang binaon sa limot at kasama ka na dun! And you know what im willing to give us a try, im willing to forget everything and to give you a chance , pero fvck ! hindi ka tumupad sa usapan natin ! So if you dont mind wag mo na akong lalapitan , wag mo na akong kakausapin ! Just so you know matagal ka nang patay sa isipan ko " Im going to leave pero pinigilan na naman nya ako. 

" Fanny please understand me. Bat ba hindi mo ako maintindihan ? Bat ba hindi mo ako bigyan ng chance to prove myself? Naipit lang ako sa sitwasyon. I dont want to do this, i have to because if i didnt they will--- " same excuse ha? He never changed. 

" ha! do you think i buy that excuses?! Think agan mr playboy ! Im not the Fanny you used to know ! Gasgas na yang linya mo ! Now tell me , you have to do this, not because for you, but because for us ! Hah ! Think again another lies Mr. Playboy baka sakaling mauto mo ako tsss! " i didnt wait him to tell another lies, i leave the place. I was going home na sana kaso parang mas trip kong pumunta na lang sa bar. 

*Insert name bar * 

As i enter this bar, nakuha ko na agad ang atensyon ng mga lalake who wouldnt be? Just i used to say im Fanny Vega. Being Vega is not the onyl reason why i have these attention, most guys know me well, because i have this title of Sex Goddess icon. Tsss. 

I order tequila and drink it . Random guys keep on hitting me , but sorry assholes im not in the mood to flirt. That Michael asshole ruined my mood. I should know that he cannot be trusted. Im such a fool to believe to him again. 

Michael is a playboy , a fvcking womaniser, a heartbreaker, a moron, douche bag, asshole ! Ughhh i hate that man ! He ruined everything ! Tangina talaga ! Nakakapang init ng ulo ! Michael and i share a painful past by the way. He used to be my everything pero dahil lang sa isnag babae nagawa nya akong talikuan nagawa nya akong ipagpalit. Tapos ang sasabihin nya i need to understand him, tanginang yan ! Sinong tangang babae ang iintindi sa kanya kung huli huli sya sa aktong nakikipaghalikan sa ibang babae?! Fcvk ! 

Bat ba ako nagpapaapekto pa ? Wala na diba ?! wala na akong nararamdaman ! matagal ko na syang binaon sa limot ! I already closed my heart to anyone ! I dont want to love anymore !  I AM NOT CAPABLE OF LOVING ANYMORE ! 

Third POV

" pare tama na yan " pilit na inaagaw ni Oliver ang baso na may lamang alak na hawak hawak ni Michael. 

" ano ba pare? tangina tantanan nyo ko ! " walang ano ano, nilaklak ni Michael ang pang 20 baso ng alak na nainum sa bar na toh.  

" tangina pare hanggang ngayon mahal na mahal ko pa din si Fannie ! *hik* L-Limang taon na ang nakalipas pero *hik* hanggang ngayon, hindi pa din nawawala sa isip ko si Fannie. hanggang ngayon mahal ko pa din sya ! Tang ina pare ang sakit lang nung sinabi nya matagal na nya na akong pinatay sa isip nya ! Fvck ! i have been with a lot of women , nilango ko ang sarili ko sa mga babae nagbabakang sakali na makalimutan ko na sya pero tang ina hindi ko magawa ! " 

" i tried to explain to her pare *hik* hindi ko naman ginusto ko bakit kami naghiwalay noon, at hindi ko din ginusto na *hik* hindi gawin yung pinag usapan namin pero shit pare *hik* naiipit ako sa sitwasyon. Wala akong magawa *hik* if she could just listen to me if she could just understand me sana we can settle this out * hik * " 

" alam mo pare hindi sa nanghihimasok ako pero sa tingin ko ikaw ang may mali. You keep protecting that girl pero tingnan mo ang nagyayare sayo ? yeah you protected her, pero masaya ka ba ? Once in a while pare sarili mo naman ang isipin mo. We know exactly , she's living damn good, pero sa isang pagkakamali nyo, o ng desisiyon mo noon hanggang ngayon nagdudusa ka pa din? Hindi mo ba talaga kaya na sarili mo naman ang isipin mo? Think of it pare, Joceelyn tuso ang babaeng yun , we know that she cant just touch her just like she said a while ago. Pero isang takutan lang na sasaktan nya si Yana , ayun ka sumunod sa gusto nya kahit alam mong si Fanny na naman ang masasaktan " - Zack. 

 " alam ko na yun pare pero shit *hik* isipin ko palan na may binabalak si Joceelyn kay Yana para akong mammatay. I cant let her die you know that ! I dont want bad something happen to her!. I treasure Yana so much." 

" sino ba talaga ang mahal mo pare si Yana o si Fannie? Mamili ka pare. " 

" Si Fannie ang mahal ko. SI Fannie lang naman ang minahal ko mulat sapul pa. Sya lang babae para sakin pero tangina pare hindi ko lang pwede basta pabayaan si Yana. Baki ba hindi ako maintindihan ni Fannie ?! " Michael sobbed. It was the first time to see Michael shed his tears infront of them. After all Michael is a cassanova and cassanova dont love just play. 

But behind Michael being cassanova you already learn his past why he's being like this. He was tore between 2 girls that he needs to protect and other one is the one who really loves but she is not his priority. 

" i decided since *hik * she doesnt love me anymore, i think i need to let her go. I will do just like her. Might as well forget her already and the love i have for her ." 

Iloveyou so much Fannie but i think this is the end of our forever.