LOVE SO SWEET ( on hold )

Chapter 35

CHERRYL POV 

December 24 . I invited Fanny, Yannie, Chloe, Lizzie, Selene and Kurt to have dinner with us. Fanny and the rest are also part of our family. Ever since kahit nasa Korea kami sabay sabay kaming nag cecelebrate ng noche buena. Yun nga lang nadagdag si Kurt and close na si Kuya Dwayne kay Kurt.    

So Kuya Xander cook all the foods, while Kuya Dwayne playing PSP with Kurt and Kuya Ace preparing the dining table with Lizzie and Selene and also the gifts. Mag eexchange gift kase kami later. And while me and rest having little chit chat. I asked Jared to come over to celebrate Chritsmas with us but he didnt reply. I even contact him but he's not answering his phone. Gusto ko pumunta sa kanila, but i dont know where he live, and maybe he will celebrate the Christmas with his family. Pero kase iba ang kutob ko, kung nagcecelebrate sya ng christmas with his family then what Kurt is doing here? Ayaw ko man mag isip ng iba man o something but i cant help it, it was supposed to be happy and memorable and since it was our first christmas together! Dahil hindi ako mapakali kakaisip , i leave the girls in my room and pinuntahan ko si Kurt. I just want to ask him. 

" Kurt can i talk to you for a second ? " i interrupt them. Tumingin muna sya kay Kuya Dwayne, asking permission i think

" sure, wait lang kuya " kuya nod and dumiretso na kami sa balcony. Just the two of us. 

"uhmmmm, errr" i dont know kung pano ko to sasabihin. nahihiya na rin kase ako kay Kurt. Ever since kahit alam kong hindi sila in good terms ni Jared, lagi ko syang inuutusan na alamin kung ano ginagawa ni Jared or kung nasan sya or kung busy pa sya or kung sino kasama nya basta sort thing like that. 

" Is it about Jared ? " he asked instead. 

" yeah , do you know where he is? " i asked and bow my head. i dont want to see the reaction in his eyes. Sobrang nakakahiya na ako. Sobrang magmamakaawa na ang ginagawa ko na sana naman na kahit once in a while magkita na kami ni Jared. Ano ba ang ginagawa nya at christmas vacation na at busy pa din ba sya at wala pa din syang time para sakin. 

" i dont where he is. Pero niyaya ko sya na pumunta dito  Im sorry Cherryl " and he hug me. Alam kong naawa na sakin si Kurt. A girl who have everything but never have the heart of her love. I control not to cry infront of him again. I cried a lot. And i dont want to celebrate Christmas crying. Nandito naman sila kuya so maybe i can be happy , somehow. 

" its fine. Thank you Kurt for everything. " i said and tried to smile . He smile back at me but i know there is something in his smile. Pity. I dont want his pity. i dont want everybody's pity. Ayaw ko na ng awa ng iba , sakal na sakal na nga ako sa awang nararamdaman ko para sa sarili ko. 

Papasok na sana ako sa loob nang biglang nagsilabasan sila papunta dito sa balcony. At sabay sabay silang sumigaw ng 

" MERRY CHRISTMAS WOOOHHHH!!!!!! " ahhh 12 na pala. Diba dapat kakain muna kase 12 na? Nahhh, mamaya na lang pala. Ang gaganda ng fireworks, pero mag maganda ang fireworks sa new year madaming nagpapaputok kesa pag pasko. Hmmm, Merry Christmas sakin. merry nga ba? Hayyy, merry christmas na lang Jared. I wish you think of me as well.