...thoughts // maxine mayfield

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progress.

i'm making lots of progress.

eleven decided to give me a chance. she's been nice to me.

she also sort of convinced mike to go easier on me. he's still not fond of me, but he's not being a jerk anymore.

the whole lumax situation is over. i decided it wasn't fair to drag him along.

i broke up with lucas. he cried. i cried. it was awful.

i felt really bad. but it needed to happen. it just wasn't working anymore.

he was really upset. he didn't understand why i was doing it.

i was really upset. i wanted him to understand.

i don't know how to tell someone that i can't love them. and it's not because there's something wrong with him.

it's because there's something wrong with me.

how can i love someone else, when i can't even love myself?