...thoughts // maxine mayfield

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susan hargrove.

what a mother. she's a horrible one. she hates me. she favors my stepbrother over me.

she sent me to anger management, of all things. i do not need anger management.

so what if i get a little worked up every now and then? it's usually her fault anyway.

she's just a really lousy mom. the only time she ever "cares" about me is when it benefits her.

she's also really good at doing it in public, so she looks like a good mom. but she's not.

the night of the snowball, she helped me get ready. she put me in a dress and sparkles.

i'm all for wearing a dress to the dance, i understand that i have to, even though i don't want to.

but if she were a good mother, wouldn't she know i'm not very girly? why would she put a sparkly silver clip in my hair?

i guess i should be grateful that she attempted to help get me ready. but i truly believe she only did that to defend herself.

and that's another thing! she knows she's a bad mom. that's why she acts different in public.

i really don't know why she doesn't love me. ive tried to be a good daughter.

i'm just not good enough. that seems to be a common opinion lately.