Beautiful Sin |Narry|

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A/N- Nick Robinson as Shawn Taylor everyone. By the way, I've been posting the characters on the 'Acknowledgment' chapter of this book, and I will continue to post them as the story continues. You guys should go check it out!

Niall
Fuck. I wipe the tears off my face roughly as I slam my door shut, beginning to pace in my room. I thought ignoring him would bring him to his senses, but instead he's just making even more idiotic decisions. What do I have to do to make him understand that pleasing everyone is not going to make him feel better, that it's just going to hurt him in the end?

A knock erupts at my door and I roll my eyes, "I don't want to talk, leave me alone!" I shout, continuing to pace, but the knocks at my door continue making me frustrated as I reach for the door knob, pulling the door open in a fast pace. "What?" I snap, but immediately feel bad when I see a teary eyed Jack at my door.

"I'm sorry." I sign, "I thought you were Harry." I apologize moving aside. Jack walks into my room, before turning around. His face is red and his eyes are glistening with tears. Why is he like this? I mean, it's not his fault.

"I'm so sorry about Harry." He signs fast, but I'm quick enough to catch it. I sigh making my way to sit on my bed, I feel defeated. "It's not your fault that your brother is an ass." I sign without thinking. I look up at Jack and he doesn't look offended so I just shake my head.

I like Jack, but why is he here? He doesn't have to apologize on Harry's part. Just because Harry is acting like an ass, doesn't make him one. He's actually the opposite, I barely met him, but I know he's one of the good ones. "I don't want to define his actions because he's my brother, but you have to understand that he's just so traumatized about losing people. He lost his dad, not because he was gay, but because he just didn't want to be apart of Harry's life. He already lost our mom, because she's such a bitch who doesn't have a heart to love her kids with all her might. He's lost my dad, our dad, the man who would defend him from our mom, to a heart attack. The only man, exception of me, who loved him for being just him. He's already lost so much. I think he's acting like this because he has been with the church since he was nineteen, he basically grew up around them, so he just doesn't want to disappoint them, but at the same time he doesn't want to lose you. He doesn't want to lose anyone, but the strategy he's using to keep everyone is not the right one. Again, I'm not defending him. I'm just giving you background knowledge so you can just understand him more." Jack signs very slowly, mouthing every word, which made it very easy for me to understand. My mouth hangs open from everything I read coming out of Jack's mouth. He's lost so many people and I didn't know. I realized he had a bad past from his testimony the first time I heard it, but I didn't think it would be this bad.

I make eye contact with Jack and I just look at him, apologizing with my eyes at this new information. He too has lost so many people. "I'm sorry for your losses, you lost them too." I sign sympathetically. Jack nods at my apology, his eyes now red around the rims as he looks to the floor.

I wave my hand at him, grabbing his attention, "I know this is off topic, but you and Harry have different dads?" I question, I know it's not what we were discussing, but I want to know more about Harry and if I can't to that with Harry, I can try with Jack. "I'm sorry, it's just I'm trying to figure him out, but he's so closed off with everything." I give a deeper explanation to my previous question and Jack just smiles, nodding. "I understand, and yeah. We have different dads. But, Harry doesn't really consider his biological dad his dad since he left him and our mom when Harry was only a few months old. Our mom and my dad met some years after that, Harry was around seven, almost eight. They had me their first year together. Our dad, Harry and me all had this sort of tight bond, we were inseparable. He always understood us and helped us when we were in need of it." Jack explains, again mouthing every word, giving me a break to process his words.