Beautiful Sin |Narry|

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A/N- River Phoenix, may he rest in peace, as Cole Danvers everyone!

Niall
Even though the tension between Harry and I was finally cleared, the atmosphere around us was still tense. A kiss couldn't fix that.

There is still a piece in my heart that is distancing itself away from Harry knowing that this little plan of his may not work out.

I lied. I'm not okay with it. I'm far from it, but sometimes lying is better than telling the truth. In order to keep Harry, I have to go along with this skit.

The atmosphere may be tense, but the fact that Harry even admitted to being mine is a big step for us. Maybe this is what's causing our awkwardness? Maybe Harry feels vulnerable after releasing a part of himself that has taken him awhile to find again?

Or maybe it's the feeling that set in my stomach when Harry admitted his feelings to me.
All this time I have been the one pushing our, whatever we have, over the bases and when I finally felt him push for the first time, it kind of, scared me? I've been so used to guiding and pushing our 'relationship' and now I may not be in control anymore.

Whatever it is though, it's not bad. It's just not the best, but it's not the worse. It's good.. for us.

"We should probably go check on Jack. We've left him alone for awhile." Harry breaks the silence between us that has been circulating us since we broke away from our short kiss.

I cough into my hand awkwardly, nodding in agreement as I move aside in a way to let Harry know that I want him to pass me by.

He looks at me weirdly before he reaches out towards me, but I quickly, unknowingly, back away.

His brows furrow together but he shoots me a small smile before walking past me.

I mentally curse at myself. I don't know why I'm acting like this, this is what I've wanted all along and now that I have it, I don't know what to do with it.

Not letting him go too far, I quickly catch up to Harry, who is now half way down the stairs.

I don't want to act like this, but I just don't know how to act.

Could I be close to him? Can I call him baby? Can I kiss him in front of Jack? What can I do?

I see Harry wave at Jack and I do the same. Jack shoots me a look and I shake my head in a way to tell him that I'll explain later. He nods unnoticeably, looking between Harry and I. "I invited C-O-L-E over is that okay? We could all go eat together?" Jack suggests and I nod.

"Yeah, I'm pretty hungry. You're okay with it?" I raise my brows and I point to Harry, who smiles and nods his fist at me. "I'm starving."

"Is C-O-L-E deaf?" I ask towards Jack and he nods as a response. "Yeah, now you can practice your signing skills with someone else other than Jack and I." Harry speaks and signs and good thing he did because I didn't understand some of the words he signed. I'm still learning.

"No, I'm going to sign bad!" I exclaim, my heart beating faster. I'm nervous, what if I don't understand how he signs.

"What do you mean? You sign good with me." Jack tells me and I roll my eyes.

"That's because I'm comfortable with you.. and Harry. I know the way your hands move. I've never met Cole. What if I don't understand anything he signs? He'll think I'm the worst signer ever!" I exaggerate, but that's literally my worse fear. I don't want to embarrass myself.

"Cole's not like that." Jack assures me and before I could reply the doorbell rings. If my heart wasn't beating fast, it really is now.

"The doorbell rang Jack, Cole's here." Harry signs to Jack who smiles brightly, walking quickly towards the door.