My sapphire

Chapter Twenty-Three

Sapphire's point of view.

Chapter twenty-three - Dedicated

If  this  was  it.  I  am  not  ready  to  go.

The  pain  was  unbearable  it  felt  like  it  was spreading  from  my  chest,  The  ache  of  my  bones  didn't  help  me  either.

The  numbness  at  my  finger  tips  gave  me  chills. I  was  stone  cold,  freezing  in  fact  it  felt  like  I  was  put  in  a  freezer  or  a  tub  of  ice  cold  water.

I  couldn't  shake  this  feeling,  the  cold  and  ache  from  my  chest  was  excruciating .

This  was  probably  what  slow  death  felt  like,  lonely  and  painful But  I'm  not  giving  up  because  I  have  someone  that  I  have  to  get  back  to.

I'm  dedicated  to  getting  out  of  this  hell  that  I'm  in  because  I  have  a  life  that  I  need  to  finish  living  for  and  people  that  are waiting  and  hoping  I'll  get  back  up.

And  believe  it  or  not  I  was  dedicated  to  getting  back  to  ruby,  to  my  life,  to  the  way  it  was  or  close  enough  to  it.  I  wanna  live  and  grow  and do  something  with  my  life  even  if  it  isn't  much  it's  still worth  every ounce  of  effort  I  have  left.

I  tried  thinking of  myself  moving  my  fingers  or  toes  and  I  think  I  might  have   did  it. I  wasn't  exactly  sure  or  not  if  I  did  move  my  fingers  a  little  because  I  couldn't  really  see  but  it  almost  felt  like  I  had  done  it.

I  deeply  thought  of  me  moving  again,  wiggling  my  fingers  I  accidentally  rubbed  them  together. My  heart  started  to  pound  as  I  thought  about  it,   'Did  I  really  just  do  that  or  was  it  my  mind  playing,  again ?'

I  have  to  do  it  again !   I  quickly  started  to  think  about  my  situation  and  how  I  was  doing  want  I  just  did.

My  mind  has  been  so  clouded  that  I  didn't  even  consider  thinking  of  a  plan  to  get  out  of  this  state  I'm  in.   I  felt  so  useless  and broken  when  this  whole  time  I  couldn't  thought  of  a  way  to  get  myself  up.

I  thought  I'd  never  have  to  say  something  like  that  but  it's  whatever,  I  calmed  myself  and  started  to  concentrate  on  what  I  wanted.

I  moved  my  eyes  around  into  my  mind  and  I  began  to  feel  drowsy,   My  fingers  started  to  tingle  and  the  feeling  moved  down  my spinal  cord  and  to  my  toes.

It  was  fade  but I could  feel  it  the  tingles  and  shocks  that  shot  through  my  nerves,  The  sounds  of  beeping  rang  in  my  ears  my  heartbeat  started  to  speed  up.

And  so  didn't  the  sounds,  the  sound  grew,  the  beeping  and  my  heart.   I  heard  more  sounds,  voices,  frantic  sounding  voices  of  a  female and a male they sounded all to familiar.

Was it my  parents .. They  where  here  after  all?  I wonder  where  tia  is  was  she  here  with  my  mom  and  dad?  I  hope  she  was  one  of  the  people  I  wanted  to  see  first  if  I  possibly  some  way  wake  up.

Each  moment  that  pasted  by  I  seemed  to  feel  lighter  like  I  was  being  lifted  It  felt  nice  and  calming  but  it  was  to  peaceful  way  to  peaceful  for  my  normal.

I  kinda  felt  a  little  out  of  place .. what  was  happening  to  me .?   I  curled  my  fingers  into  a  fist  and  tried  to  breath  as  normal  as possible  or  as  much  as  I  could,  Something still  felt  abnormal.

I started to get even more lighter or it felt that way and more sounds started to form all around me.

Beep .. Beep .. Beep ..

The sounds became even more annoyingly known, The voices I could hear more clear than before I could feel more and the numbness in my fingers returned it slowly started turning into a mild tingling almost burning feel.

I'd be lying if I said this didn't hurt because it hurt like hell but I needed to fight so the pain I can deal with to get back to where I belong, where I am needed.

I rubbed my eyes slowly I attempted to opened them I was immediately blinded by blurry white lights. I had to blink away the dryness in my eyes.

"Sapphire?" A soft voice spoke up out of nowhere it sounded a little in disbelief, "Oh my god your up!" I didn't have to look at the person to know who the voice belonged to it was my aunt tia. My dry lips broke into a smile it split my lip a little but I didn't care I was okay with it.

"Oh my angel your up!" She through her arms around me and hugged me tightly, "I missed you so much! Your not allowed to ever leave me again." She hugged me even tighter.

"I'll be right back I have to go get the doctor or someone that know's what there doing." Tia rambled on and quickly let go of me and elegantly left the room peacefully.

I sat up slowly and adjusted the breathing piece that was attached to my nose I just quietly sat in the bed till my aunt came back with a doctor.

"Mrs.Sapphire, Hi I'm Nina I'll be the nurse attending to you." A Indian women walked in the room with tia right behind her.

"How are you feeling?"

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FINISHED !! I finally finished this chapter!

This was by far the hardest chapter that I have had to write and honestly I still don't know how I feel about it.

I'd  love  to  know  what  you  thought 💭  of  this  lmk  in  the  comment  section!  And  give  it  a  like  if  you  loved  it  lol 😂  Oh  and  I almost  forgot  to  ask,  since  schools  back  in  motion  and  whatever  how  was  your  first  day?   Mine  was  boring .

But I hope you enjoyed this little piece anyways have a nice night/day ❤️ ⛈