Our Heart - The Greatest Showman {Book 2 of "One Heart"}

Chapter 1

Three Months Later 

Lizzy's Pov 

I sat at the dining room table by a small dying fire, alone, reading a book i had found on the shelf - Little Women. I had read it mutiple times already, but it was something to do. It had taken me a while to clean up the house, a few weeks to be exact. Everything was new though, rearranged. Nothing was in the same place as it was when i left this house three months ago. Hannah had recovered well and decided to stay with her parents, they had offered for me to stay with them as well but i declined. Why, i am unsure of. 

I heard the door open and close, but continued to read. Only looking up when i heard someone pause in the doorway before procedding to sit down in a chair opposite to me. 

I settled down my book on the table infront of me, looking at Anne. "Oh Good, what is the latest update with Hannah? Is she out and about again?" I asked, while Anne just looked at me. 

"You left? You left the circus?" She asked in disbelief, raising her eyebrow. 

A let a few seconds past before speaking. "I see Barnum has been making his rounds." 

"He's worried about you." Anne explained. "We're all worried about you. I'm extremly worried about you, since when do you quit?" 

"The circus isn't the place for me anymore." I admitted, twirling a piece of twine i had placed on my finger earlier this moning. 

"You spent years trying to find a place for you to belong..." Anne started and I intertupted. 

"And it was a waste of time". Slowly, I picked up the cup of tea I had made and took a long sip from it, letting the warmness of it spread across my chest. 

"I would love to see you tell Barnum that or even better, Helen and Caroline." She scoffed, standing up out of her seat. 

"Barnum moved on, why can't I?" I asked her, finishing off my tea afterwards. I placed my tea back down onto the table when Anne began to walk across the room. 

"Okay, this is done. I am done walking on eggshells. Okay, we all are." I placed my fingertips on the side of my head as she continued to speak. "I've kept my distance. I've given you time to be alone, without prying. Without trying to force you to come to the bar or to the circus Without making you talk about Phillip." 

"There's nothing to talk about." I snapped quickly, raising my head back up. My green eyes meeting with her hazel ones. 

"But i have let it slide", Anne continued. "Your pity party has gone uniterupted." 

"My ...Pity party?" I questioned, feeling the anger and frustration seep through into my voice a little.

"Who are you right now? Because the Lizzy i know doesn't quit." Anne confessed, and i stood up to meet her height. 

"She quits the things which arn't important." I reply, walking over to the little table off to the side of the room and poured myself another cup of tea. 

"The Circus is important. It's your home." Anne follows me over to the table, contiuing to try to talk to me. 

"Not anymore its not." 

"Yes it is, its not in the countless of books you have been cooped up reading. The Lizzy I know...." 

"Phillip was my home!" I snap, turning around the face her. "The old Lizzy sucks right now! At least with my books, I know there is going to be some sort of happy ending. So if i can choose to be submerged in those books,Why would I ever want to be the sad girl whose husband is gone? I don't like that girl Anne." 

At my little outburst, Anne walked closer. Her tone more gentle. "Look, I know it hurts." 

"No you don't. You don't know anything. You've never had pain like this." I say moving my hands away from her extended ones.

"Okay, the tell me what it feels like. Please, let me help you." She almost pleads, and for a few small seconds I am tempted to tell her. Tell her that I feel like i'm breaking every day, that there is this pain that doesn't want to go and would rather stowaway in my heart. That every morning I wake up sick and every night I can't sleep.  "Please Lizzy, let me help you get over him..." She trails off knowing she picked the wrong words. 

"Get over him?" I asked. "He didn't break up with me Anne. I searched for two weeks and there was no trace of him whatsoever. He is gone and for all I know he's..." I try to say it but i can't. "He's..." 

"What?" Anne asks breathlessly. 

I close myself off once more. "It doesn't matter." I walk away from the table, with a new cup of tea and pick up my book once more. 

"Your not letting yourself feel anything. Your just bottling it up inside and making bad decisions. And I'm worried. If it were me, I'd be broken." Anne admits and she walks over, following me. 

"I'm not." I quickly say, denying it. There are a few long moments of silence and you can hear the steam from my tea making its way around the room. Anne looks at me, defeated almost, as I speak. "So if you have an update about Hannah I would love to hear it otherwise..." 

"Hannah is up and about once more. She wants to come see you." Anne told me. 

"No." I answer bluntly. She looks way to much like Phillip for me to be around and she is just going to remind me of the nightmares I have every night. 

"Also W.D has an announcement, he wants us all at the bar tonight. 6pm." 

"I'll be there." I say, going back to my book, turning the page. 

I can hear Anne whisper a small okay and she starts to walk out of the room not before, turning on around looking at me. I can see her out of the corner of my eye as she tells me  that "Elizabeth Gray is my favourite person." After that she walks out and I hear the door slam behind her. And all I can do it rest my head on the table. 

A/N 

Chapter one of book 2 is done! Yay :D This chapter is very much based on the dialogue of Alex and Kara from Supergirl (Season 3 episode 1) just as when I started the third season, I could see the scene being played out like this for Anne and Lizzy. Tell me what you think :D 

Until next time. 

Love, Maya