Why do people care so much, it's such a mundane thing to do. What I think, humans have way too much time on their hands. For animals in the wild they only have one goal, survive. However we've gotten to a point where we don't need to worry as much.
To get by the time we fill our lives with distractions. We give ourselves specific goals to work towards so we have purpose. Think about it like this then it kind of becomes irrelevant. After all of you think everything is a distraction just used to pass the time then you will care less about it.
So this message will only be a suggestion. I don't want you to think of life from the way I have. It leads to nothing but depression and misery. Trust me.
Yet with those I see depressed and suicidal they have a feeling of hopelessness but never for the same reason. If you were about to jump of a building and kill yourself I would not want to talk you down because I can't. I don't want anyone to die but if I was in the position I would just tell them how pointless life actually is then tell them to grow a pair. Great people skills I know.
But this is what confuses me. I care about very few things, I've also been depressed for about 3-4 years now. Yet I've never wanted to take my own life, the thought is always there and it can be pretty persuasive but I've never wanted to do it. Mainly because I think it's stupid.
The main thing most people look for is companionship. To be with someone. And for quite a long time it looked like that would never happen. I regarded myself as a thinking pile of shit (that wasn't autocorrect). And nobody seemed to be interested in me. But despite this all I could think of was maybe. Maybe tomorrow, maybe the day after, maybe in 10-20 years.
I've got a few years to kill, why not wait. But people throw their lives away saying that there's nothing left for them. They don't even try and think of the possibilities. And all I can say is that is pisses me off. But it is also 10:00 at night so I just say what's on my mind.
If I've offended anyone or come across as an absolute dick then I'm sorry but go fuck yourself. I don't need to justify my own thoughts.
P.S I thought the song kinda relevant to the topics
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The Way I See It
FanfictionI've been giving a suggestion to write chapters about how I'm feeling and what's going on in my life. I have never done this before so if it's shit please don't blame me. It will also include certain problems or theories I have about various things...
