The Way I See It

Hi

It's 3:00 am, I can't sleep. While looking through my iPod I noticed that I still have WattPad so I decided to take a look back and damn. I don't remember half of what I wrote but I'm bored and can't sleep so screw it, let's write a bit.

My last post was 2 years ago, since then some stuff has happened. I turned 18 and remember basically no other significant events. Even my 17th is a bit of a blur but enough about that.  To anybody who's reading this I hope you're doing well. Though you're reading this so there's a chance you're not. Unfortunately this site mainly consists of people who are looking for smut, fan fiction or other depressed people they can relate to. And seeing as I don't really write smut or fan fiction that brings it down to one possibility.

I'm confused about quite a few things. People still confuse me, but more worryingly I confuse myself. After nearly 4 years now my depression isn't much better though i am a hell of a lot better at hiding it and appearing happy. I'm not gonna talk about that just now, but maybe later.

If you've made it this far then there's a chance you're here for a reason. I don't know what that reason is but let me know, I'm happy to talk.

It's also at this point I remember why I started writing on this site in the first place, talking to myself is addictive. How narcissistic can I be 😂. It's like a enjoy the sound of my own virtual voice. Anyway, here's some thought I've been having. Stop trying to look for something like love. It will come along at the right time and all you'll do is make yourself feel shit for thinking about it so much. Trust me, I know. Also, nobody actually knows what they are doing. I've watched many different talks and heard opinions about so many different subjects, they all differ. Nobody knows so forget about it. There might me 7.7 billion people out there but there's no person that's right for you. The fun is that you get to choose.

Here's something else, if you're reading this then do something fun. It'll cheer you up and in turn might just make your day better. Everybody has stress, reduce it in any way you can. It will kill you.

And as I reach the 400 word mark I feel tired. I'm gonna post this up and forget about it until my brain decides I must indulge myself with a little bit of personal writing. So have a good day, whoever or wherever you are. Bye.