The Second I Met You ✔

Chapter 10

Matt's POV

"Last year... I met a guy who I thought I loved, I was naive and didn't think twice about our relationship even when I knew I should. He obviously had a bad influence that at the time I didn't acknowledge. I kept things from my parents, I would sneak out and be a brat staying out late to parties and my parents were sick of it. One night I didn't come home, I was with him the whole day and I was going to spend the night but he wanted to...uh...you know..." I knew what she meant and I find it adorable that she can't say it, I nodded letting her know I understand and she can continue. 

"Well I didn't want to so he kept insisting as I kept denying until he got enough and started being violent, he was violent before but never to me. Since I kept denying he... uh... he started to beat me up and I tried to get away but I didn't get very far. I didn't even see when he grabbed a knife since we were downstairs in his kitchen, and he cut me with it" she starts to cry again only this time she backs away and lifts her shirt, sure enough, there's a big scar across her stomach. I reach to her and as I touch it she flinches and I look up at her to ask her if it's okay and tell her through her eyes that I won't hurt her and she gets that so she nods.

 I can see it in her eyes how insecure she is about it so I bring my hands to her cheeks and I kiss her on her lips then I go down and kiss the middle of her scar to show her that I love every part of her.

"It's okay you don't have to keep going" I take a strand of her hair and place it behind her ear.

"No, I have to tell you" We both go back to the headboard leaning against each other. "Well I managed to get away and called my parents while covering my stomach with my hand to somehow slow down the bleeding, I just kept walking or running to the hospital I can't really remember it was all blurry but my house was close to his so it didn't take long for them to pick me up with their horrified faces as they saw the blood. I laid down on the back seat still trying to keep blood in but it wasn't working and I can feel myself losing consciousness. We were arguing well as much as I could and I sat up for a second only to see a car driving right to us... I tried to scream to my dad to watch out... but it was too late the car was swirling and I just blacked out the next thing I know I was in an ambulance not knowing what happened and where I was but then it all came to me so I started to panic and moving around so they had to put me to sleep. The second time I woke up I was in a hospital bed and Rachel, Sophia, and Mark all washed over with relief as they saw me opening my eyes but it was quickly replaced with pity or that look everyone gives when you're forced to tell someone they've lost the people they love. They didn't have to say it I saw the black bags and floor all covered in blood and glass and metal. All of this and I still can't understand why I was the one who survived since I was already on the verge of death with all of my blood loss. If only I would have stayed that night they... they would...still be alive" she started sobbing again and I was speechless all I could is hold her tight.

"Hey don't beat yourself up it wasn't your fault" I turn her over to face me.

"Yes it was, I was a brat and that caused the life's of my parents and now I can't see them"

"Em, what are your nightmares?"

"Huh those um..." she chuckles "They are a constant reminder of what I've done," she says I can see she's still exhausted.

"Come on go back to sleep" I suggest.

"Will you stay with me?" she looks at me in the eye and I can see the fear that I want to take away.

"Always!" We get comfortable under the covers and as she is slipping away to sleep I give her a kiss on her forehead.

"I love you!"