Jones 2

Chapter 2

Karen Don't Be Sad~ Miley Cyrus

Tell Me~ Groove Theory 

Sit Next to Me~ Foster The People

PAULINAS POV//

I learned in life that you cannot get out of the face of God. If you sin you eventually have to confront it and God will always be watching you. The best thing about mistakes is that you get to correct them. I've made a huge mistake. Life teaches you lessons as you walk through it. It throws obstacles at you to see what you're made of. It kicks your ass to test your strength. It does that to toughen you up. Eventually, you'll get tired of crying and feeling sorry for yourself because you know what to expect. You know you won't be able to hide from this type of shit. 

Today is Angie's last day in New York and I couldn't be happier. For the past 6 days, I've been stuck talking to Daniel for comfort. She's been busy there and the time zones are different so when she's sleeping, I'm awake. I haven't been very good at confronting my behavior but since summer began, I've been treating Angie like shit. Since she left it's hard to talk to her. Not because of fear or anything but because she's in a totally different state busy doing New York shit. 

I've been trying to distract myself and keep myself busy as much as possible. I don't remember the last time I went a day without talking to Angie. I think this is the third day her and I haven't actually talked. She isn't mad at me or anything. Just busy. Very busy.

My phone vibrates and lately whenever my phone makes the slightest noise I attack it.
*We have to talk* A text from Angie says. My heart literally stops beating and my fingers hover over the keyboard trying to find a way to respond. 

*About* I send back. My leg shakes while hanging off my bed because I'm nervous what her response will be. 

*Our future..* When I read her text I inhale a decent amount of air and hold it in. 

*We have a future together?* I ask.

*I hope so* She sends and my heart flutters. 

*Do you wanna get married or something?* I send as a joke.

*yes...* she sends. I wasn't serious but apparently, she is. 

*I thought long and hard about it and I'm sure* she sends right after. 

Instead of texting her back I FaceTime her. It goes straight to FaceTime Unavailable. 

*I can't talk* she says.

*We will continue this conversation when you get back on California soil* I text.

*Oh. Ok* she says. Did I just approach the whole situation wrong? Of course, I did. I'm an idiot. 

I'm not sure what to do now so I call Daniel. 

"What do you need now?" He answers.

"When you and Angie fought, how did you fix it?" I ask him.

"What?" He asks confused.

"Dude, whats so confusing about that?" I say.

"Just suck up to her," he says.

"I cant just suck up to her all the time," I say.

"She's stubborn and really sensitive. the easiest thing to do is to just suck up," He says.

"Fuck me. Ok, I'll just do that," I say and hang up. 

It feels like dealing with Angie is getting to become a chore. The puppy love we had last year was cute now it feels serious. Like we might actually be going somewhere. She nags now. It seems she doesn't trust me as she used to. I get this type of bullshit comes with a potentially long-term relationship. Honestly being friends was easier.