Jones 2

Chapter 14: Kassidy

Jaded~Drake

KASSIDY'S POV// TTS

"You're my Angel. Thank you for saving me," is what he said to me. He said that to me. Now we don't even talk. We don't even acknowledge each other's existence. 

Isaac. 

Now I understand what Paulina was talking about. For the short time we dated it felt like him and I were on cloud 9 together but there were moments where he would totally fart out and go into a rampage about Paulina. She fucked him up. She destroyed him. It was so sad watching someone so broken try to get through everyday life when the love of his life was a well put together person who was happily in love with someone else. She impacted his life in an indescribable way. She did something to him to almost poison him into remaining in love with her forever. 

He and I broke up but I know he will get over me in a heartbeat because he will forever be hung up on Paulina. I want nothing but good things for Isaac. I want his heart to be at ease. Paulina tore it out of him, threw it on the ground, stepped on it, picked it up, squeezed it and spit on it. Then she put it back in his chest obliterated. This is why Paulina and I didn't talk for the few months Isaac and I dated. She knew why I was pissed at her but like always she told everyone I stole her boyfriend. I mean, I guess I did but she cheated on him first. Isaac lives his life today believing his life will always be what Paulina made it. That is called the mind projection fallacy. He believes if he falls in love again, another girl is going to do what Paulina did to him. This is his psychological projection of the world that is reflecting on the way he carries out a long-term relationship. His belief in this false psychological preference is causing his relationship skills to diminish. 

There is no more touching up my lipstick. There is no more wearing crop tops at school but changing back into the clothes I left the house in before my mom picks me up. Maturity comes with sacrifice. I'm not sacrificing anything but I now don't let boys run my world. I changed almost every unique aspect about myself to be the perfect fit for Tommy and in the end, he just wasn't into me. It was obvious. If you constantly are asking yourself if someone loves you, the answer is most likely no. It's sad but very true. I miss him but not to the point where I can't get out of bed and carry out everyday tasks. It slips our minds that we weren't created for other people. We were created for the sole purpose of adding meaning to the world. there is no such thing as a worthless person. Every person adds worth to the world. It doesn't matter who you are. Parents need to start teaching their girls that they are worth something. And even boys. They are all worth a portion of the world. Yes, our world is really shitty but we can't rush to generalization.

 Within the couple of months we've been in school I made three new friends. All who happen to be girls. What they all have in common is that they live like everyone is watching. In other words, they dance like everyone is watching. The best part about a real person is that they dance or live like no one is watching. They don't live for a crowd. But these girls do. I still haven't cracked myself out of the habit of not caring about boys because I find myself engaging in boy-related conversations. I find myself forgetting about my old friends. The people who molded me. The people who created and accepted my sense of humor and the people who kept me in one piece. My family. But that's a good thing. No one says anything but we started to fall apart around the middle of eighth grade. Once Angie and Paulina were full-blown, no one wanted to be around them. Half the time Crystal was with her new friend group, the sci-fi nerds. But you didn't hear that from me. This weekend for Daniels Birthday, he invited everyone to an escape room themed birthday. So I have to actually go down to the valley and see them. It'll be nice but tension will be heavy. 

Most of the time it was just Daniel, Angie and Paulina. No one knows why they kept the dream alive of everyone being together even though they knew we were hopelessly falling apart. But you know what they say. 400 lux while keeping that dream alive. 

I apologize for this chapter being so short but I've been crazy busy. I promise chapter 15 will make up for it. I also entered Jones in two writing competitions one which came with a price tag of $25 and we totally flopped :( but we won a silver medal in a 2018 Dramatic-Creative writing contest!! Fingers crossed for future contests! 

(Once Jones 2 is complete I'll be entering the story as a whole in several competitions hopefully by the end of 2019 or 2020)