Jones 2

Chapter 20

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APRIL 25, 2016

Today is Angie's birthday. Angie and I haven't spoken for a little more than a month and it feels like a part of my life is missing. It's like I'm waking up every day but not really waking up. those good morning texts I used to wake up to don't exist. Those goodnight phone calls are nowhere to be found. I have this shitty problem where I hide my emotions and lock them away in the memory box in my brain because it's better to feel nothing at all rather than pain. When I think about Angie, my hearts feels like it weighs four tons. I try not to think about her but once my head hits my pillow before I fall asleep, I can only think about her. I will admit I was very brutal when I ended things nor did I take into consideration how I was making her feel. I know for a fact I broke her heart.

I could sit here and be a poetic hopeless romantic who in fact obtains no such thing as a heart but after the years you've spent getting to know me, you probably get it. The thing about relationships is that once in a while they need a break. Two people can be together for a long time but you have to remember those two people are both their own individuals. It's a basic historian fallacy that revolves around the minds of those taking part. When one lets go of the rope, it falls. If they both hold on the rope won't fall. Cause and Effect.  

She's 15 today. I'm happy for her. I'm pretty sure she'll be doing something with Daniel like always. What I don't get honest to god is why she still hangs out with him even after the sick demonic shit he put her through. The sick fuck is literally quaking with excitement because he turned out and won. I know there was really no real competition but it feels like Daniel and I have always been competing for Angie. Her attention, her company, her time. Everything for christ's sake. 

ANGIE'S POV//

I'm 15 today. I don't feel any different. Just a day older than I was yesterday. Feels weird spending my birthday without Paulina. This is my first birthday in three years without her. 

"She isn't going to text you," I hear Crystal say. 

"I know. I just feel like she might you know?" I say defending myself. 

"You've been staring at your phone since you got home and I bet even at school you were pathetically waiting for her to text you," Crystal preaches. She isn't wrong, however, I don't appreciate her calling me out.

"It's true she was," Daniel says when he comes back into my living room from the kitchen. 

"Just because you're here doesn't mean you have to speak," Crystal says toward Daniel. 

"Please guys," I say and throw my phone down next to me. 

"I'm only in the same room with you because it's her birthday, otherwise do not speak," Crystal continues. 

"Angie, what do you want to do. We can't spend your birthday on the couch wallowing over Paulina," Daniel points out. 

"I don't really feel like doing anything. I'm actually sad and you guys haven't even acknowledged it," I stress.

"I wish you were this hurt when we broke up,' Daniel scoffs.

"What the fuck Daniel? You know every time you open your mouth, you say some dumb shit that's just gonna make people hate you more," Crystal yells. 

"What happened?" Angie's new friend, Julia, asks when she sits down next to Angie. 

"Angie's still sad over Paulina and now she doesn't wanna do anything for her birthday," Daniel says while stuffing his face with Cheeto puffs.