Why Not?

Jake

Rich had changed his username back so we would match again.

It was subtle. I have to give him credit for that. Normally that wouldn't be his strong suit.

You all might be wondering why I didn't want Rich to tell everyone we were dating...
Well, I have an answer.

I've only come out as Pan to Rich.

No one else knows.

I'm not ready for them to know.

Rich was totally understanding though. He was a little bit bummed though. I know he wanted to shout it from the rooftops.

I'd like to as well. Later.

For now I want to keep it lowkey.

God, I really rushed into this. Didn't I?

I should've waited until I came out to everyone to kiss Rich.

But I was just so caught up in the moment.
It just felt so right!

You can't blame me for that.

Okay, maybe you can.

But he was just.. NO NO!! I can NOT blame this on Rich.

That wouldn't be fair to him.

We were sitting on the edge of my bed. The music was still playing.

It was good background noise for my thoughts.
The best of the song set the rhythm for the words in my head.

I turned to Rich. My eyes traced along the burns that painted his face. Even with his scars he looked like a work of art.

A work of MODERN art.

His damp hair was messy from my touch. It was sticking in every direction, the red streak mingling with the blonde.

Normally it was so neatly slicked up or back with gel.

It was a lot softer with no product.

He was a lot softer without the Squip. Personality wise, of course.

The sad thing is, he tries so hard to hide his scars. All I want is for him to feel comfortable in his own skin.

That's to be expected from a boyfriend, or someone like me in general, right?

I'm staring at him.

I can't help it. His freckled skin is so beautiful.

I wonder if he feels the same way about me.
Maybe...
I can only wonder.

We're sitting next to each other right now. It's so easy for me to pick him up and hug him.

Which is exactly what I do.

The thing I like the most about him is that I can shower him with affection and no questions have to be asked.

"What are you doing, Jakey?" He said, laughing through his words.

Never mind. But it was playful so I don't mind even one bit.

"Loving you.." I kissed his cheek.

"Okay. Do ath you pleathe."
"I already am."

All I was doing is holding him in my arms and admiring him.
Every time I hold him I can't help but think that he's mine now.

Unless he leaves me...

That would suck.
He won't leave me.

Right?

Shit. Stop thinking about it.

Think about how amazing he is.

Never mind our phones are buzzing.

I check the group chat.

[Jer-Bear has changed their name to Boyf]

[Boyf]Michael. Change it so we can be like Rich and Jake!!

[GayMer has changed their name to Riends]

[Riends]Are Rich and Jake dating or do they just want their users to match?

Fuck.

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Fuck I need to stop.

Someone please help.

This is my fifth chapter in 24 hours.

F I F T H.

5 CHAPTERS IN 24 HOURS.

Fuck.

I hope you guys enjoy these.

Edge:Out