Leather and Lace (Editing)

Chapter 15

Chapter 15

I hear scuffling in the background and the crunching of leaves over my sobs.

I open my tired red eyes and unravel myself from the bundle I had been in for a few hours, looking around to find the source of the sudden noise but unable to see much through the trees and darkness, I squint my eyes until I come across a figure, still not able to see their features.

My heart rate spikes as I start to panic, what if its like the person in the ally? I swear I'm about to either shut down from shock and start to hyperventilate or flat out bolt, but before I can make my decision I hear that same soft silky voice I had been crying over just moments ago and sigh in strained relief.

"I thought I might find you here.." Ian murmurs quietly, almost inaudiable but in this park at night with only a few crickets chirping, it drifts over to me with ease.

"Why are you here, Ian?" I'm almost surprised at how horse and rough my voice sounds, not to mention emotionless... broken.

I can slightly see his shocked expression but he masks it quickly. "Look, I know what my mother said about us leaving but I swear I didn't know. I would have told you, you know that." He was slowly making his way towards me.

"No, you know what Ian? I don't know anything anymore! I don't know who I can even trust." my voice breaks slightly. "Wait, scratch that. I definitely can't trust you, or anyone for that matter.."

He frowns and comes to stand right in front of me, reaching out to touch my cheek but I slap it away. He keeps a straight face but I can see his pain, yet I feel myself role my eyes and scoff. 

"Don't act like you care. You made it clear how you really feel about me." I spit out with as much venom I can master in my voice.

"What do you-" 

"Well you know how it is man, shes a good fuck." I say the words that have been burned into my mind and just saying them feel like acid down my throat.

Ian stands there, utterly shocked for a moment before regret flashes across his eyes, I turn away as my heart constricts. I really don't want to deal with this or listen to him grovel. It's too hard.

I started to walk away but he gripped onto my hand gently, which I ripped from his grasp immediately.

"Do. Not. Touch. Me." I stated through gritted teeth threateningly.

"Look Anna, I really wasn't-"

"Just stop! Okay?! I don't want to hear you beg and plead. I don't want to waste any more of my life being in the presence of someone that gossips to his friends about me, and then what? You expect to come home and everything to be fine?! To use me for sex and personal entertainment, then when your finished throw me to the side like dirt?! I'm not a toy, you can't just string me along and play with my emotions!" I felt a few tears leak down my cheeks.

"Look I'm sorr-"

"No. You don't get to talk. Do you know how hard it is for me to open up to someone and let them see me for me? Well, I let you in and trusted you with all my heart and you decided to rip it out and spit on it instead. I thought you cared for me but instead I turned out to be the fool and I guess the fool always gets burned." I stated grimly, with tear stained cheeks. I decided to take my exit, collecting my belongings and walking away, leaving behind Ian for good.