Chapter 5: Emotional

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Lapis POV

I woke up in the middle of the night. I looked around and found that I was back in the barn. I tried to get up, but a felt a sharp pain in the back. I winced and laid back down.

I looked around and noticed that Peridot was actually sleeping in a nearby chair. She must have been panicking a lot, because Peridot only sleeps when she's really stressed. It was kinda cute, knowing that she cared so much that she fell asleep watching over me.

I hate her so fucking much right now.

What the hell was that? I shot back up and looked back at Peridot. Why the hell did I think that? I've never thought about Peridot like that since I've known her. The only time I ever felt angry towards her was when I first met her, and I didn't even feel as angry as I felt right now. What scared me the most was that fact that the thought entered my mind so... easily.

Whatever, she deserves it for always being such a bitch. 

Now I was terrified. I've never had thoughts like this before, much less towards Peridot. I needed air, I needed to clear my head. I tried to get up again, but felt that pain in my back again. I ended up screaming pretty loudly. Peridot's eyes shot awake.

"Oh my stars, Lapis! You're finally awake! Are you okay? When we found you, you were passed out, so I was super worried about you!" The little green gem exclaimed.

Look it her. She's worried about me? She left me down in that lab with that weird shit!

No, stop that! Those aren't my thoughts! I... Wait, the goo... What happened to that goo?

"I'm f-fine Peridot. Just a l-little sore, t-that's all." I stuttered, trying not to let my weird thoughts influence how I treat her.

"Are you sure? No other strange feelings or pain... maybe regarding your gem?"

Are you really talking to me about my fucking gem?!? AFTER YOU LEFT ME IN THAT FUCKING DESOLATE PLACE?!?

"What d-do you mean?" I said.

"Okay Lapis, don't panic. When we found you, you were sweating profusely and it seemed like you were in pain. Then we flipped you over and... Lapis, there's something growing out of your gem..." Said Peridot.

WHAT?!?!?!?!?!

"There's s-something growing o-out of m-my... MY GEM?!?!" I yelled.

"Like I said, don't panic. Whatever it is, it doesn't seem to be doing anything harmful to you. Calm down." Peridot said in a calming voice.

Oh you little shit...

"PERIDOT, THERE'S SOMETHING GROWING OUT OF THE BACK OF MY GEM, I FEEL LIKE SOMETHING IS STABBING ME IN THE BACK, AND I FEEL LIKE SHIT! SO DON'T TELL ME TO "CALM DOWN", YOU FUCK!"

I covered my mouth as soon as I said that last sentence. I never meant to say that. Peridot looked like she was on the verge of tears.

"I-I'm sorry L-Lapis. I d-didn't mean t-to upset y-you" Peridot stuttered.

"Nonono Peridot, I didn't mean to say that! I... I don't know what's happening to me. I found something down in that hole. It was some sort of weird goo. I think... I think it might be inside of me. Can you tell me what's growing out of my gem?" I said.

I felt so bad. I just insulted Peridot to her face. It felt so... natural though.

"A-actually, I can show you." Peridot then reached down behind her chair and pulled out a photograph. "Steven took a photo of your gem so you could see  it."

I took the photo out of her hand and looked at it.

Oh. My. God. What is that.

"I-is that an e-eye?" I said

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"I-is that an e-eye?" I said. "That t-thing is g-growing out of m-me?!?!"

I'm going to die. This is it. I'm going to die and there's nothing I can do about it.

My eyes poured over with tears. Tears... why am I crying? I didn't feel sad a second ago...

"Peri, what's happening to me..."

Peridot came over to me, wrapped an arm around me and pulled me close to her.

"I... I don't know. But whatever it is, we're going to figure it out." Peridot said.

I was pretty... comfy being hugged by her. I felt pretty sleepy too. Just as I was about to fall asleep, I heard her say something.

"And if we don't, we can always shatter you and forget you!"

I shot up from the bed I was laying on, the pain from my gem still stabbing me in the back.

"Lapis, are you okay?"

"Why did you say that?!" I asked worryingly.

"Say what? All I said was "I'll be here for you." Peridot replied.

"That's not what I heard..."

"...What did you hear?" She asked.

"Y-you said y-you were going to s-shatter and f-forget about me..."

Peridot looked surprised. She got up, grabbed me, and laid me down gently back onto the bed.

"I would never do that to you, Lapis. I care about you."

I fell asleep next to her a few minutes later.


The next day only got worse.

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