Me, Myself, and Him

Chapter 6: Symptoms and figures

Lapis POV

When I woke up the next morning, the pain in my gem had almost completely gone away. It was almost felt like a distant memory with how comfortable I felt without a stabbing pain in my back. I looked around the barn and saw Peridot working on some sort machine. I almost thought that last night was all a dream until...

Oh look, the bitch is already awake.

I sighed and started to get up, when Peridot saw I was finally awake.

"Ah, Lapis! You're finally awake! How are you feeling today?" She said.

"I-I'm doing m-much better. I'm s-still have those w-weird thoughts, t-though." I replied.

"Oh... I've been trying to figure out what's happening to you, but I haven't had any luck. Nor have I had luck in figuring out how to suppress those symptoms of yours." Peridot said, still focused on the machine in front of her.

So what, the little trinket in front of you is more important than your FUCKING FRIEND?!?

"Well, there is one solution..." Peridot says, reaching for a blade near the machine she was working on.

"W...What are y-you doing?" I stuttered, trying to back away.

"Shhh... It'll all be over soon, Lazuli." Peridot said, raising the blade above her head.

"NOOOOOOO!" I screamed, my eyes shut and hands covering my head.

Suddenly, I felt a pair of hands shaking me. I slowly opened my eyes, when a familiar voice started shouting at me.

"Lapis, calm down! Whatever you saw didn't happen! It's just me, nobody else! Are you okay?" Peridot shouted worryingly.

"I... I don't what's h-happening to me Peri... I'm scared..." I stuttered.

Peridot looked at me with actual concern. I didn't think she cared so much.

Whatever, she's probably faking it. After all, she is the worse person on this gem-forsaken planet.

"Whatever is happening, we're gonna figure it out together. I'm here for you..." reassured Peridot.

Suddenly, we heard the warp pad outside the barn activate and Peridot left to see who had warped in. From within the barn, I heard a small, upbeat voice yell.

"Peridot! Lapis! We came by to see how Lapis is doing!" Steven yelled.

I slowly made my way towards the barn door to see Steven run up to give me a hug. Behind him were the rest of the Crystal Gems.

"Lapis, how are you! We were so worried about you. Peridot even cried!" Steven said, hugging me.

"I... I d-did no s-such thing! I w-was simply worried a-about the integrity of the t-team!" Stammered Peridot, blushing like crazy.

I chuckled a little bit, and looked back at Steven. He looked so happy to see me.

Look at the little brat. She's worse than Peri-snot.

My eyes went wide. No... No, not Steven. These thoughts can insult anybody else: Pearl, Garnet, any other Crystal Gems, even Peridot. But not Steven. He doesn't deserve that...

"Steven... Get a-away"

"What?"

Look at him. The little shit can't take a hint.

My heart started to beat faster. I had to get him away from me, before I did something to him I would regret.

"You h-heard me Steven. Get. Away."

"Lapis... Are you feeling alright?" Peridot asked.

I could feel my emotions start to rise. I didn't want to feel them, but I couldn't stop them.

Then the worst possible thing happened

"CAN'T YOU JUST LISTEN ME FOR ONE FUCKING TIME AND BACK AWAY, YOU LITTLE BRAT!"

As soon as I said that, my hands shot up to cover my mouth. I looked around to see the damage I had done.

Pearl's mouth was hanging wide open.

Garnet and Amethyst both looked at me with shocked expressions.

Peridot went over to confront Steven.

Steven...

Steven had tears flowing down his face. His eyes looked like they had just had the innocence taken out of them. His hands were trembling and he was taking steps away from me.

"I...Steven..." I tried to say something but instead stopped myself.

I turned around and ran right into the barn, closed the big wooden doors, and locked myself in. I knelt down and started crying.

"What the hell is wrong with me..." I said between sobs.

I can't do this anymore. Hurting people near me, it's just too much. Maybe I could run away. Go to somewhere far and secluded so no one can find me and I can die in peace. That sounds like a good idea, actually...

I got up and went to unlock the barn door to leave, when all of a sudden I heard someone shouting behind me...

CAN ANYONE HEAR ME?!?! PLEASE?!? I'M STILL ALIVE, I SWEAR!!!

I whipped around and looked to see who was talking. 

In the corner of the barn stood a mysterious figure. I tried to make out what he looked like, but the shadows of the barn covered him in darkness.

"W-who's there? Come out w-where I can s-see you!" I yelled.

The mysterious figure head popped up and he spoke again.

You... You can hear me?

"Yeah, and I w-would appreciate it if y-you could come out of the c-corner and show m-me what you look l-like!" I yelled

The figure slowly started walking towards me.

You...You can SEE me?!?

At this point, the figure's body was fully in the light. He seemed to be wearing a smudged white lab coat, muddy boots, and a white t-shirt under the lab coat. His skin seemed to be dark gray and flaking

"Yeah... What, can you not see me?"

I... You can see me... YOU CAN SEE ME!!!!! I'M NOT DEAD!!!! I'M NOT GOING CRAZY!!!

Then the figure fully stepped out of the shadows. His hair seemed to be messy, and there was a big smile plastered on his face. But the feature that stood out to me were his eyes.

His eyes seemed to rectangular, and they were gray and hollow. I felt like they were looking into my soul.

The figure ran at full speed towards me and hugged me as hard as he could.

OH THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!!! I CAN STILL BE SEEN!!!!

I tried to wiggle my way out of his grasp, when all of a sudden he let go of me and held his hand out.

It's so nice to meet you, Miss...

"Um.... Lapis. Lapis Lazuli." I said as I shook his hand.

Well, It's a pleasure to meet you, Miss Lazuli. I would tell you my name but...

His face seemed to freeze in place.

But... I don't remember my name, or anything about me for that matter.

"Oh... I'm sorry..." I said, trying to console him.

Nah, it's okay. It's not your fault.

We both starred at each other for a while.

I guess you can call me... um... Gray? Yeah, you can call me Gray!

"Okay then. N-nice to meet you Mister Gray." I replied

It's nice to meet you too.