Fight For You

Chapter 20

Marlene POV

Here's the thing about living underground, your mood is about 100000x worse down here. Even though I can't see myself right now, I can sense that I look absolutely awful. Thanks a lot Uriah.

I walk fast down the halls getting as far as I can from his apartment. I decide to go to Lynn's. I don't see her much anymore and she's been so distant, which is weird. Anytime I see her in public she just flees. It makes me upset because she's one of my best friends, she's always been there for me, along with Uriah. But now they're drifting away from me. I wonder if it's my fault? Was it something I said? Am I too ugly for them to handle? Do I smell? I need answers! And I'm not getting any.

Not as many people are out-and-about at night then in the day, so I don't have to worry about obnoxious crowds. But I do have to worry about someone I know being able to see my easier. So I walk in the shadows in the hallways- which are on the sides- rather then in the middle of them, just in case.

Lynn moved to the other side of the compound about a week ago. She claims it was 'closer to her family'. Yeah no. Her family lives on the west side of the compound. She's on the east side. I know it's just another lie. What she really means, is that she wants to get away from the gang. I don't know why, and the thought makes me even more upset.

When I finally finish the long journey of traveling almost across the entire compound, I knock 3 times. When we were smaller, we told each other to knock 3 times to identify who it was at the door, if we ever needed eachother.

The door opens and Lynn's eyes widen.

"What." She spits.

"Hey..." I say awkwardly. She raises an eyebrow at me.

"So...Uriah and I broke up." I say sadly, looking at the floor.

"Yeah," she sighs. "I knew that would happen." She says rolling her eyes. I look up at her and narrow my eyes.

"Excuse me?!" I half whisper, half yell.

"I dunno, you guys just, weren't...." She trails off.

"Weren't what?!" I say, my eyes begin to water.

"Nevermind.." Lynn says quietly. She stares at the ground. I'm about to yell at her but I don't. I don't want her to hate me even more. I sigh.

"Are you okay Lynn?" I ask concerned.

"Why wouldn't I be?" She asks looking up and looking at me suspiciously.

"You've been so distant. You barley talk to me anymore." I say sadly.

"Is that a problem for you?" She asks with an attitude.

"Well no-yes- maybe, I don't know! But you just never talk to me or tell me anything like you used to!" I say

"Like what!" She says throwing her hands up in the air.

"You used to tell me almost everything!" I yell. "Now you shut me out completely!" I have tears in my eyes making my vision blurry.

"Oh so now I have to tell you everything? Don't be so clingy Marlene! No wonder Uriah left you!" She yells and slams the door in my face. I begin to cry harder.

I just lost my two best friends. Sure I still have the gang, but, I've known Lynn and Uriah for as long as I can remember, and now they want nothing to do with me. Lynn's words repeat in my head. No wonder Uriah left you. I have nowhere to go now. Both, Lynn and Uriah hate me, and I don't want to bother anyone else. So I sit in a random hallway, take a blanket that I stuffed in my bag, and cover my legs. I lean against the wall and close my eyes, silently crying to myself.

*Time lapse*

I wake up and my back hurts like crazy. I got about 3 hours of sleep at the most. My cheeks are sticky and my eyes feel puffy, I must've been crying in my sleep too. I take my blanket off of me and stuff it back into my bag. I'll have to get an apartment today, because I can't sleep in the hall forever. My legs are wobbly so it's pretty hard for me to walk at the moment. But I'm in no rush, so I take my time and slowly make my way to the cafeteria.

The smell of food fills my nose when I open the door. Everyone at my usual table except Uriah-who isn't there- turns and looks at me. Shauna and Christina rush to my side wide-eyed.

"Marlene!! What happened you look awful!" I just nod and look at the floor. I can barley speak. I think I lost my voice from yelling and crying so much yesterday. They lead me to the table and put a plate of food in front of me, but I just stare at it as if it's dirt.

"Mar?" Tris says concerned.

I look up and sigh. I have to tell them. So I do. I sob after about 10 seconds so I doubt they understood what I said.

"Marlene! Im so sorry!" Shauna says.

They all begin talking to me at once, I can't make out anything they're saying. In no time at all, it just sounds like random babbling to me.

Suddenly, the room starts spinning, I start breathing really heavily, and a very painful throb starts in my head. It doesn't feel like a headache. It feels like a migraine, 10x worse. I fall to the ground and scream clutching my head. It hurts so bad, I've never felt pain like this before. Everyone crowds around me, screaming and talking to me, but I hear nothing.

I see a tall figure, with muscular arms and sandy colored hair, hovers over me and picks me up, putting one arm around my back and the other under my legs. My vision is getting black around the edges and the pain is getting worse. Hey, I remember this boy from initiation! Lucas, was his name. He starts running, and thats all I remember before I pass out.