When strangers become friends..

Chapter 18

Janines POV

I did it...and she said yes!!!

The thoughts rushed through my mind again and again. I can't even explain why I am this happy but I like it..I wasn't often happy for a long time..maybe it's getting time for it again.

The whole day I spent alone in the flat because my parents were at the garden. I hated it there because I am not such a flower freak but they loved it so..they spent every day they can there. I baked a cake what I haven't done for a month or more but I just felt like it so..

After the cake was finished, I sat down at the couch in my room to relax. But of course, something had to ruin the day...

Stop it. Stop being happy and try to build up a friendship. You don't need it. The voice in the back of my head was back and I widened my eyes in shock.

You don't need it..stop it before there's no turning back possible. 

I jumped up and played my music real out to tune the voice out. I don't want to hear it..it will bring me back down again..

It complicates the plans...think about the first plan and what happened..

"I DIDN'T PLAN THIS! I DIDN'T THINK IN THIS SITUATION! IT WAS STUPID", I couldn't help but shouted the words because I couldn't keep them inside any longer.I rested my head at the wall and whispered "I don't want to let go..I can't this time. It's like something is holding me back.."

You see..that's what I talk about.. the voice echoed again in my head.

It makes it difficult..Stop whatever is going on there!

As the voice said the last word, my leg hurted exactly where the bandage was and I fell back into the couch as I pressed out "Leave me alone" in pain before the tears started to roll down my cheek.

What do you guys think was "the accident"? :)

And about what "plans" is the voice talking about? :)

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