dear richard,
i know this is something we don't want to talk about, but i need to get it off of my chest. i know when i called it sounded scary, and it kinda is.
i wrote this down because i din't want to leave anything out. and i'm reading from it because if i didn't i wouldn't know what to say, because this is really hard for me to do.
first, i just want to say thank you for everything. thank you for coming to my softball games. thank you for all the food and drinks and seeds and candy you've bought me. thank you for buying me the necklace with your name on it. thank you for giving me all the time and attention when i needed it the most. thank you for giving me hugs when my mother left and i cried for days. thank you for answering the phone late at night when i was scared and staying on the phone until i could fall asleep. thank you for treating me right when no one else did. thank you for all the millions of compliments that you've given me. thank you for everything that you've done for me
now to the hardest part. i know we swore when this relationship first started, nothing could ever break us apart. the world was ours and we would live together and get married and have kids and we would just have all the things we wanted to. it's nice to have dreams, and they were great, no doubt about that. it's just, we're growing up, and i have to face somethings that are my biggest struggles.
i really do care about you rich, and i know this is breaking your heart just as much as it's breaking mine. but over the past couple of weeks, i've had plenty of time to think without distractions, and i just think it's time we give, us, a break. we've had the best 2 months together, but now that school's about to start, i'm just not going to have time for, any of this, any of us. between studying and softball and workouts and driving, it's just too much for me.
i know this sucks. but in 100% honesty, i can't do this anymore. i don't want to do this anymore. i don't want to have to worry about texting you back every 5 minutes. i don't want to cuddle up and be all lovey dovey every time we hang out. i don't want to hang out every free moment i have. it's too much for me.
but of course i'm not saying all of this to hurt you in any way. i just want to be open to you. because we've never lied to each other, and i don't want to start now. that would be pointless because i still want to have a connection with you.
maybe in the future this could work out? i want to have a strong friendship with you because we're a great pair, just not in the relationship kind of sense. i think we just hopped into this way too fast. we only talked for like 4 days and bam, we were together. i didn't have time to get to know you until after we started dating.
i know this is hard, but i had to do it. i have to do what's best for me, and this is what's best for me. i really hope you understand and still want to be friends with me because i don't want to stop being friends with you. if you love me, like i know you do, you will respect my decision and let me go.
with all of my love, kassidy.
