ups. downs.
we're always here for each other no matter what.
screaming. fighting.
nothing will keep us apart.
drugs. stealing.
it gets worse with every secret broken.
lies. betrayal.
words sting. they really do affect someone. especially with family members you haven't seen in over 10 years.
there's so much drama, that i've never known until now.
why?
why would you want to ruin this relationship that we've never really had?
this bond, that has never even been made, has already been broken.
trust, thrown out the window.
scars on my heart have reappeared, that i never knew existed.
yelling. i can hear it through the walls.
things that i've never known, coming to the surface.
anger, in everyone's voices. nothing but stress.
no love. only hate.
throwing things. breaking glasses.
breaking my heart. shattering on the ground, and getting stomped on by everyone's voices.
no one will listen. i try to speak, but everyone's words drown out my pain.
my pain. it's excruciating.
it hurts to even breath. my tears cover my face as i finally crack.
i can't hold it in any longer. i try and i try but the walls tumble down.
no one talks. they look at me, and stop.
the war, it's not over.
they just wait until i'm done to keep fighting.
nothing will end this.
a feud between mother and daughter. sister and sister. brother and sister.
no matter who you are, you have a problem with someone. and if you don't raise your voice, you're not heard.
then i scream, i let it all go from my body.
my body is finally calm. my shoulders are relaxed. my mind is clear.
....
i'm sitting here writing this because i can't hold it in. this is an awful habit no one should have. if you ever need help, reach out :))
love, kass
song - pain by xxxtentacion
