The beginning of everything

Chapter 9 Telling about things

Michael POV

I looked at Madison, damn she was so beautiful. Her hair was perfect, her laugh makes me laugh, and her shape of body was perfect. I was creeping on twitter, but I wanted only look at her. Michael, act normal you met her 4 hours ago. "Madison, sit down next to me" Calum said to her. She could sit between us or literary next to Calum. She chooses luckily to sit between us, I felt a happy mood going trough my body. What the hell was she doing to me? This never happened to me before, so she has something that turns me on. I didn't know what but she did have something. "Madison, why you are wearing a sweater if it is this warm?" Luke asked her. She looked shocked at Luke, she probably didn't knew why she did. "Uhmm.. Well, I've caught a cold." She respond a bit insecure. "No, you didn't, you aren't sniffing with your nose or anything so why" Luke respond. "Okay, I will tell.. I wear a sweater because it has long sleeves so you can't see my scars" she said with a deep breath. "But Madison, We already saw them at the picture you had send" Ashton respond. "Well, you're right. Can I take my sweater off? I have something else underneath this" She asked us. We nodded, probably nobody didn't care because she took some clothes off. We are boys so why would we even care? She had took her sweater off and you could see all her scars. She was beautiful without her sweater but she used her skin as paper. "Madison, I have to tell you something important" Calum said. She nodded, so Calum could say what he wanted to say. Calum first grabbed her wrists and turn them around, now you could see her scars at both arms. She tried to let Calum go her wrist but Calum didn't. Her eyes flickered between Calum and her wrist"No Madison, your arms aren't paper. You used them like many sheets of papers and I can't stand that your een her scars, Calum and us. "Calum let my wrist go, now" she was about to cry. hurting yourself." Calum looked her straight in the eyes. A tear welled up in her eye, and felt of her cheek. More and more tears are coming up, but she wouldn't cry, she did but didn't like it all. "Calum, please let my wrist go" was the only thing she said with her shaky voice. She leaved her hand between her legs so you couldn't see her scars. I think we were all shocked about what happened. "I go home earlier, because uhmm.. it doens't matter why" She broke the silence. Ashton looked at her "Why should you leave earlier?" was his question. "Because I'm embarrassed because I've cried the first day I have met you guys" she said again holding back tears. "Do you think we don't talk to you because you cried? I think you are crazy" I ask and told her. She nodded while looking at the ground. My finger tilt her head up so I can look into her eyes, I said nothing I only nodded no. I carried her into a hug, the rest of the boys joined. "We never leave you Madison, we know you not that long but you belong with us" Ashton said. She tried to leave hug, we didn't let her go. So she tickles Ashton, she stands in front of us now ready to say something.

Madison POV

I opened my mouth to say something, but first I let a breath go. "You are so sweet to me guys, I wished everyone was like you guys" I laughed. I sat down at the couch were nobody was sitting, so I didn't get in another hug attack. They hugged really well, Michael hugged the best, but maybe that was because he was my favorite. I placed my hands back between my legs so you couldn't see my scars. It was so sweet when Michael tilt my head up with his hand! I never felt those butterflies before when I looked at his video's, of course I was always fan girling but this no. It is so special that one picture of my arm could make me friends with those boys. One day they will be world famous and wouldn't be my little secret any more. They are around the 16 now and started not that long ago. I'm really happy they started though, they are famous in Australia but here in Wales not really. I'm sure that in other countries people have those lovelies as little secret too. One day they wouldn't and that idea hurts me already, but they will be happy. "Could you guys lead me around the town?" I asked them. I never been in this part of Great Britain, so I could use that. "Of course we can, Madison I think it is smart if you stay here at night so we haven't leave early" Ashton told me. "Yeah, you're right. I will text my mom that I sleep over. She can deal with that" I respond at Ashton. We left the house and walked around the town, it was beautiful. I laughed about the most stupid things with the boys which makes me feel really happy. We also ate at Nando's which was delicious, damn I loved Nando's. But who doens't love that? After having 4 hours having fun in town we head back at home. "Uhm Madison, we haven't 5 beds so you have to be with one of us." Luke told me. I was not shocked at all, why would they have 5 beds if they were with 4? "I will sleep with Ashton, I wanna talk to him about some thing" I respond and smiled weakly at Ashton. "Okay, well goodnight guys" Calum said to us. "Goodnight guys" we said all at the same time. I followed Ashton to his room, weird enough I knew where his room was. Ashton let me first walked into his room and I smiled at him. He had a 2 person bed standing in the middle of the room, the wall was filled with thousand of photo's of him and his family and the band. "I love your room Ashton" I told him. He smiled at me, while he was throwing a shirt at me. "What I have to do with this?" I asked him. "I can tell you haven't bring your sleep clothing with you so sleep in that. You can change in my bathroom" he joked while pointing with his finger at a door. "Thanks Ash" I smiled weakly at him and headed to the bathroom. I changed quickly, I picked my clothes up from the ground and got back the bathroom. I leaved my clothes at a chair in the room. I walked to the bed and sit and it. "So where you wanna talk about" Ashton asked me. I watched at Ashton, I didn't knew if it was too soon. "Maybe it is to soon, but could you please tell me why you was used to cut?" I asked him looking down. "Well, it isn't too soon for me. So, yeah.. My youth wasn't that great, I had nobody at school and had huge walls standing around me. That was maybe the thing that was making me weird at school, I always wore a mask. One day I couldn't handle that anymore that nobody loved me. I was hating myself to, so that was my first cut. It felt so good the cutting thing, so I got addicted to it. And now I've got those scars.. What about you?" A few tears felt down at his cheeks. "It is okay, Ashton. Well, I've got the similar story as you. People bully me at school and nobody likes me at all. My mom says I'm beautiful but I aren't. Everything they said at school I started believe. They say things like 'worthless person', 'attention whore' and 'slut'. I believed those thing so my mind repeat those words 24/7. I felt worthless, so it didn't matter if I got cuts in my arms. I use them now as my paper if I'm sad or mad. That is my story" I told him in shaky voice because of my tears. "It will be alright soon babe, let's get some sleep. You're tired I can tell" Ashton said while brushing my back. "Can I cuddle you while I fell in sleep?" I asked him. "Sure you can babe! Goodnight beautiful" Ashton said. "Goodnight Ashton" I respond. We laid down and I make myself comfortable in his arms. That was the way I felt smiling in sleep.

Author's note:

This is definitely my favorite chapter!! omfg Calum was so sweet though he is having a hard time too. I let fell tears too, it hurt me too some things Madison told Ashton, and Ashton to Madison. I would let Madison sleeping with Michael but that is really standardt and I don't like that. Sorry :$ So I have a playlist at with this story that I always listen. Thanks for reading this so far!! I will set the link another time, because it don't work right now. Bye!! Stay beautifull x