Inside My Head -Short poems

Fall

I've never been a taker, never a rule breaker. 

I always tried my hardest, even if I wasn't the smartest.

That's the hardest part of it, I tried.

I never stole nor lied.

I put a smile on my face,

Always strode with a purposeful pace.

What did it get me?

Nothing.

My life's a mess,

An ever-revolving game of chess.

One day I'm up most days I'm down.

I feel like my feet will never touch the ground.

Weightless, or at least my heart is.

My body is to heavy for my feet to lift off, but my heart is to light to feel.

My insides could be broken, my soul shattered and broken like a massacred orange peel.

I did everything right.

I never snuck out at night, never got into a fight.

Still, I sit here, broken as can be.

No end in sight can I see.

I'm tired of trying.

Hopelessly buying,

The time that I know is borrowed.

It's time to give up throw in the towel,

It's never going to get better.

I'm tired of trying to write that letter

Nobody needs to know,

Because nobody cares.

Maybe I'll be the one who finally dares.

Finally tries and takes that fall.

Maybe it will finally end it all.