Opposites Attract

Chapter Twenty One: "I'm happier without you"

I had to hold back a gag as the strong smell of alcohol drenched my face in its bitter scent. I shifted my head as far away from his face that I could get which wasn't that far considering I was pressed against the door.

“Can you please back up?” I said in a quiet voice.

His eyes glazed over with irritation, but he reluctantly took a small step back. I still had my back on the door, but I was able to stand without touching him. He didn't move much, but I'll take what I can get.

“What do you want to talk about?” I asked.

“You and me.” He said maintaining eye contact with me.

I scrunched up my eyebrows  in confusion and became tense at his words.

“Blake, there is no you and me.”

I had much more confidence in my words than the last time I spoke.

“But there could be.”

I shook my head, “No, you ruined that on your own.” I said as I tried to move away, but he moved with me, stopping me.

What is he doing?

I looked down at our feet, feeling suffocated by his presence. Softly, I felt his sweaty hand reach up and pull my chin up, forcing me to look at him. I quickly moved my head so we were no longer touching.

I didn't like the way he touched me. It was rough and forceful, making me want to coil back.

“I know I messed up and I think about it all the time. I totally fucked up our great relationship-”

“It wasn't that great.” I mumbled.

He ignored my comment and took a deep breath and then looked at me with his almost black eyes.

“Please, I messed up and I’m sorry. I want you back in my life. It can be just like it used to be. We could be happy, again.” He smiled as he twirled a piece of my blonde hair.

“I'm happier without you than I ever was with you in my life.” I spit out as I reached for the doorknob, but he quickly pushed his hand on the door and spun me around.

“Don't say that!” He yelled as his fingers dug into my shoulder.

I winced and said, “Blake, you're hurting me.”

He ignored me and continued talking with his drunk rant.

“Don't you dare say that! I know you need me as much as I need you! You need me!”

I watched as he stepped away from me, his body rigid as he paced the empty room.

He mumbled incoherent words and pulled at the roots of his soft hair, making it stick up.

“You need me.” He mumbled.

“No.” I stated loudly.

He stopped pacing, his back facing me as he breathed heavily.

“I don't need you. Stop thinking I do because I don't. You're a liar, a cheater, and a pathetic excuse of the Blake I used to know. I'm not the type of person you can push aside once you find something better and then come crawling back to when you realize you screwed up. I deserve better than that.”

“I am so sick of hurting over you and no matter what you do, it won't change anything. You burned that bridge all on your own. I don't want you. I don't love you. I don't need you.” I stated proudly.

He hadn't moved since I started talking and it kinda freaked me out. His silence made my stomach turn and my mind was telling me to leave so I slowly reached for the doorknob, keeping an eye on his tense figure.