Cancer

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We grew up together

I knew her from church

We always drew cats and horses

And she really inspired me

But of course like all cases

The future I couldn't see

She introduced me

To the best kinds of tea

She helped me through tough times

Even when she didn't know it

I didn't have to show it

But then it came

Like a sudden hurricane

Unstoppable and unpredictable

She did ballet

She was such a beautiful dancer

Even when her feet were in pain

It hurt more when she was diagnosed with cancer

She didn't deserve to go so slowly

To have to fight through all that pain

I'm surprised I kept sane

But now I wash my blood down the drain

Because she was so beautiful and elegant

She saw past my demon

And that made her my angel

With gorgeous golden hair

And blue eyes you wouldn't believe

An innocent sweet smile

That could easily decieve

But that's all gone now

She's far away

Dear lord

Why didn't you let her stay?

Why did you take my angel from me?

Was I so bad?

I'm just secretly sad

She didn't deserve that pain

Her family shouldn't have gone through that trouble

Nobody should've experienced

A fifteen year old almost sixteen going to the hospital

At two fucking am

And watch their daughter, sister go out of sight

Nobody should experience that hurt

And that sorrow

Of losing a loved one, a friend, a daughter, a sister

When they knew there was no tomorrow

Crying for years

No end to these tears

Fighting for a grasp of life

But grabbing the wrong end of the knife

And hurting ourselves more

Than it has before

And watching that person

That sweet little girl die

Without getting even the slightest fucking chance

To say goodbye

So hear my words Father

And take care of her

Keep her safe

And look after her

I wish I had another chance

To say how much I loved her

How much I appreciated all that she's done

Because nothing at all

Nothing and no one

Was my angel like she was

If I could hear her voice

One last time

Even if it would hurt me

Just one last time

If I could just look into her colorful blue eyes

Even if my heart dies

Just one more time lord

That's all I ask

Please

I don't want to wear this mask

Please

Just one simple task

Please

Even if it's just for a little while at slack

Please give her back

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