Blank Skies

31

Rebecca

I pour my drink in my kitchen, the door jingles before opening and revealing Andre. He smiles dropping his duffle down on the floor near the door, "How was your day?" I ask and he just walks straight to me and puts his mouth on mine.

His hands hold my face hungrily and in a way it's like he's scared. I place a hand on his arm as he continues to take my breath away. We break away and he rests his forehead on mine, "That bad?" I ask and he sighs closing his eyes, "Stressful."

I sigh and rub my thumb against his arm, "I got you baby." I say and he stands up, "I'm gonna go shower." He kisses my forehead, "Okay well I love you." I say and he smiles briefly, "I love you baby." He sulks away.

I lean against the counter and stare at the drink I just poured. I sigh and pick it up before making my way into the living room. I sit the cup down on a coaster and lay down on the couch. I hear the shower turn on and I close my eyes listening to the hum of the TV and the running water.

His office is under reconstruction from the inside, people are leaving just as fast as the new recruits are coming in. It's a total train wreck and Andre's boss has been blaming him for things he himself is responsible for. It's awful, everyone's stressed out and pissed off at each other. Andre told me he had to literally break up a fight between to guys from a different department just yesterday.

I zone out and cuddle up with a blanket.

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I wake up in my bed in a cold sweat as Andre lays next to me. I take a deep shaky breath as I hold my chest. I cover my mouth so I won't wake him. I slide off the bed and sit down on the small couch at the end of the bed. I rest my head in my hands as I steady my breathing.

"You alright?" His voice makes my body jump. Andre sits up and turns on the lamp on his side, "What is it?" My head stays in my hands, "Bad dream." I shake it off, "I didn't mean to wake you up." I say and he rolls his eyes, "Becca." He gets out of bed and sits down next to me. He kisses my shoulder and rubs my arm, "I'm always gonna wake up if you jolt out of bed." I sigh and lift my head up.

He offers a soft smile, "You just have so much going on you need the sleep Dre." He rolls his eyes, "I love you baby, but sometimes you don't make sense." He chuckles and I turn to look at him, "You have everything at work right now, you don't need to have the worry of me there too." He continues to laugh, "Becks work is always gonna be stressful and I knew that going in."

His words come across serious, "You mean more to me than any job. I'll always hold you above everything, do you understand me?" He rests his arm along the back of the small couch. His fingers brush against my skin, "So when you have a bad dream at two in the morning I'm gonna be here." His free and takes my hand in his, "I mean you'll just have to get over it." He smirks and I smile softly.

I lean in and press my lips to his, "I love you too." I say in between kisses. His hands hold my face like they did earlier when he came home. I straddle his waist and his hands roam my body, "Andre." I say in a whisper and he shakes his head as his hands grip the bottom of my shirt, "I could hear you say my name over and over again." He whispers in my ear, his warm breath dancing across my skin.

I close my eyes and he kisses just below my ear, "Mhm." I moan holding his bicep in my hand. His hands tuck themselves under the waistband of my shorts and squeeze my butt. I know that if we continue like this, it's gonna be awhile before we sleep. If this is what he needs then I can give him. His face meets mine, "Shit Becca I'm sorry." He says retracting his hands, "I don't know what's gotten into me." His hands lay on my waist.

There's a hurt pang in my stomach.

I give him a soft smile and hold his chin in between my fingers, "Andre-" I start and he cuts me off, "No it's okay we should try to get some sleep." He lightly kisses my lips and I climb off him. I tuck some hair behind my ears as I watch him get up and rub his face. I climb back in bed and lay with my back facing him. I bring the blankets up to my face and stare at the bare wall.

He turns off the lamp and we're left in the dark. I can't help but feel a sense of insecurity as we lay together. Something I never thought I'd feel with him and yet here I am. I close my eyes and a tear slides down my cheek melting into the pillow case.

Way to say goodnight.

I wish things didn't have to be like this between us. Why do I have to close myself off to him of all people? We are supposed to be in this together and fighting against all the odds, but why does it feel like the war is between us. He is running away from me it feels like whether that is what's happening or not. 

I don't want to lose him. I squeeze my eyes closed and feel the tears begin to slide down my face. 

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Sorry about the short chapter!! I'll make it up to you!