DEPTH OF PAIN{completed}

TEN

Ethan

After the kiss we shared at the Yatch, I officially asked her out and she agreed, I've never been this happy in my entire life, the kiss we shared made me realise that I can't stop denying what I feel for her. Bianca completes me and my heart flutters whenever I see her, I feel at ease when she's around and forever will I clutch to her just like a shrew in its abode.

The only thing bothering me now is why she wants us to hide our relationship from every one, I'm trying not to believe she's ashamed of being seen with me, it's been two weeks we've been together and we've only been going out secretly, only chioma and David knows about us and they've been helping us to go our together. And talking of Chioma and David, I've noticed that they act weirdly when I'm with them. That feeling that I'm disturbing their privacy is what I get when I'm with them.

Next week is her birthday and Chioma, David and I are planning to surprise her. Today is Saturday, I took her to freedom park located in Lagos island, she wore a flora baggy pant and a black tank top that brought out her tiny waist, she packed her hair in a bun, she looks extremely beautiful, we walked in hand in hand, the place is a little crowdy today because its week end. We walked around and I told her funny stories about David and I and she laughed hard, that made me remember Chioma and David's parole.

"Is there something I should know about David and Chioma?" I asked out of curiosity, she bursts into laughter and later tried to stop laughing.

"So your best friend didn't trust you enough to tell you what you are suppose to know?" She teased as she chuckled

"Come on, tell me already, why are you guys treating like an outcast?" I lamented

"It's not in my place to tell you there's a chemistry between Chioma and David!" she said unconsciously

"You just did patty" I said as I smirked and she gasped.

"Oh God!" She smiled

"You suck at lying or hiding things"

"That's enough, let's sit for a while" she said tiredly as she pulled me to a sit, we sat and she rested her head on my shoulder as she had her left hand around my tummy, I caressed her hair and I stared at her face as she told me about her phobia for sharp objects and height, she told me how she embarrassed her dad the day he took her to amusement park, I studied her face and all I can see is happiness.

In the last two weeks I've been on top of the world. I've not had the gut to make any sexual advance to her, I can't bring myself to because I respect her a lot, she's different from all the girls that I've met, they only want my money and share my popularity, some even wants the title the half caste's girlfriend but she doesn't seems to be interested in all that, what she feels for me is genuine. She doesn't care about how rich I am, when all other girls bow at my feet, she stood up to me, I know I feel something strong for her but how do I define it? Love? That doesn't exist, my mom married a black man all in the name of love, she followed him to Nigeria after they gave birth to me but the love he claimed to have for my mom turned to hatred, I witnessed how my mom gets insulted and ridiculed everyday by my dad, he cheated on my mom and forced her to file for a divorce, it took my mom months to be able to claim my custody, then I was ten. I watched my mom cry every night everyday, when she sees other women with my dad on internet, all in the name of love, what I feel for bianca is strong and real but I don't think it's love.

She sprang up suddenly and pulled me behind a trashcan.

"What happened?" I asked worriedly

"Layla is here!" She answered agitatedly

"So what Patty?" I asked as I stood up in fury

"Come on, get down here Ethan, she'll see you" she said as she peeped