× FLIRTY || Jaemin ×

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Jaemin P.O.V

The evening was funny and I wish we could do this more often. I was about to go and bid goodbye to (Y/N) as I had a dumb thought.

I grabbed her wrist and she twitched under my grip.

"What's wrong? Did I hurt you?" I asked.

She shook her head, freed her and rubbed noticeable her underarm. Her face was distorted by pain and I really began to worry. Raising my eyebrow I demanded to show me her wrist.

(Y/N) tried to shoo me out of her flat, but I was faster and grabbed her wrist.

Her underarm was full of scars. Why did I never notice them?

"Self-Harm is not a solution." I said with a serious tone.

"But it takes the pain away." Her voice was barely a whisper.

"I will be your painkiller." I embraced her and stroked over her back.

I called my parents if I could stay over and surprisingly they said yes. I can't leave her alone with that problem.

She needs my help or someone she can talk to.

(Y/N) P.O.V

I grabbed some blankets from my bedroom and brought them to my living room. Jaemin sat on the couch and rubbed his face watching his phone. Was he texting with the boys?

Will he tell them what I did in the past?

I coughed and his face lifted up. He smiled at me and patted the hand on the place next to him. Laying his Phone away he smiled at me.

My heart.

A bit shy I sat next to him. He took the blankets out of my hand and placed them above us. Jaemin put his left arm around my shoulders and pulled me towards him.

"Do you want to tell me, why you did this to yourself?" His voice was soothing.

Closing my eyes I tried not to cry. The past hurts. I breathed in and opened my eyes again.

"This will be a long story. I never told it to anyone. You're the first." My voice was a whisper.

"Why didn't you talk about it? It must been a huge reason since you did that." He grabbed my wrist lightly.

Jaemin looked at my wrist and stroked over my scars with his thumbs. Shivering I pulled my wrist away. Why am I telling him everything?

I barely know him. Hell, I thought a few days ago that he's an asshole. Sighing again I decided to speak up.

"I couldn't tell anybody that I was hurt. Everyone thinks that I'm happy and life loving girl, they would never have had the idea that I can be hurt too. Maybe because I'm never giving them a reason to think that I'm hurt."

He nodded and I continued.

"I want to be a strong and independent girl. I don't want that people see how hurt and broken I can be. They need to know that they can rely on me."

"But they would also know that if you show them your vulnerable side." Jaemin meant.

"Maybe, but I'm a bit weird." I giggled softly.

Pulling me a bit closer he shook me. I smelled his fragrance; it was fresh and somehow manly.

"Everyone is weird. If I'm taking me as an example, I can't sleep if my pencils are not sorted."

I laughed and hit his chest.

"You can't compare these two things."

"I can do what I want. Don't question me." He laughed with me.

Jaemin's smile was mesmerizing and stunning, a second I thought about what would happen if I kiss him now. What am I thinking?

I won't give my heart away ever again. Getting a bit away from him I coughed.

"Anyways, do you still want to hear my story?" As an answer he nodded.

"I only had one boyfriend in my life. I thought that he would be always by my side."

Jaemin's gaze darkened.

"To be short, he broke up with me. He said that he doesn't love me anymore. I'm just his best friend, nothing more. Sadly he was my best friend too. I may be nice and funny, but I don't have really close friends."

There was an awkward silent but Jaemin broke it.

"Is that the reason why you're living here, alone and hundred kilometres away from home?" He asked carefully.

I nodded. This was my way to escape the situation, to forget what happened at my home. To forget, why I hurt myself.

I still felt the pain. I still cried at nights. I still cut my wrists. It takes my pain away.

"I don't know how it is, to feel the pain of a break up, but I will help you." Jaemin said reassuringly.

"Thank you. It really felt good to talk about it."

"That's not a big deal (Y/N). That's what friends are for." He cuddled us together.

"Let's sleep. Tomorrow will be a long day."

He turned off the light. I closed my eyes and within seconds I fell asleep.

Jaemin P.O.V

Not feeling my arm I woke up. I saw (Y/N) lying on it and smiled. She looked vulnerable and relaxed while sleeping. Her lips drew a slight smile. I looked around and searched for my phone.

Grabbing it with my free hand I looked at the time. 6:20 Am. We still have plenty of time until we need to go to school.

I decided to stand up and make us a breakfast. Carefully I stood up and tried not to wake (Y/N) up. I succeeded and walked to the kitchen.

I made us a scrambled egg with toast and coffee. Smelling the herb scent of the coffee I heard steps in the hallway.

(Y/N) stood in the door with tousled hair and tired eyes.

"You made breakfast? Thank you." She smiled at me.

We ate in silent and she slowly got more awake. She told me that I could use her shower and that she had a few spare clothes for me.

An hour later we were on our way to school. She told me that her favourite season was fall and that she loved snow. Seeing her without concerns made me happy.

As we walked together into school everyone looked at us. Of course they would. I, Na Jaemin was walking with a girl into school. I winked at a few girls in the hallway and all of them started to giggle.

(Y/N) bid goodbye to search for Taehee and I got to my clique.

"Jaemin, where were you? We missed you in the morning." Jeno exclaimed.

"I slept at (Y/N)'s place, but I will tell you later about it. Any news?"

"We will get a new student and his name is Lucas." Renjun told.