× FLIRTY || Jaemin ×

12

(Y/N) P.O.V

Taehee and I spent the whole weekend together and we didn't look on our phones once. I wrote my parents that I won't visit them, so they wouldn't be concerned about me.

After talking for hours straight my throat felt dry and I stood up to get some water. Taehee sat on the couch and nearly started to sleep. She looked so beautiful and I wished I would look like her.

Sighing I got some water and looked at the photos on the wall. I saw little boys and girls and could swear that one of them looked like Lucas.

I must imagine things. I think too much about him.

Looking at the other pictures there were more pictures of Taehee. Her chubby cheeks made her so adorable and I hoped that my old photos also were that cute. The last picture was a young woman with a pretty boy. The smiled at the camera and I could see how in love the woman was.

The smile of the guy looked somehow forced. He was familiar, but I couldn't recognize from where I knew him. This must be probably Taehee's parents. Maybe I saw him while he picked Taehee up?

"(Y/N) why are you taking so long, my throat wants to explode." I heard Taehee shouting.

Remembering why I was here I walked back to Taehee. I gave her the water and she flashed me smile. The cold liquid ran down my throat and it felt good. It didn't scratch anymore and I was about to continue our talk as a phone rang.

Taehee didn't want to pick up, but she saw the caller and looked at me. I nodded and she accepted the call.

"Hello, what's up?" She said.

She hummed and nodded her head. Rolling her eyes I tried not to laugh.

"Yeah bye, I won't destroy something." Taehee ended the call.

Putting the phone away she grabbed her glass of water.

"Who called?" I asked.

"Actually this is not really my house, my godmother owns this house. She's a good friend of my mother, but sometimes a bit grumpy." She laughed.

"Is it okay for her that I'm here?"

"She doesn't know about it, but I bet she would complain about it."

"We can go, if it's not fine-"

That was the moment when my sleeve slipped and my wrists suddenly showed up. I tried as fast as possible to cover up, but Taehee saw it already.

"What is that (Y/N)? These are fresh cuts!" She nearly screamed.

I tried to stutter a sentence, but Taehee hugged me and started to cry. Why is she crying?

"Taehee, stop crying. Why are you even doing it?" I was confused.

"I feel like a bad friend. I didn't notice that you are suffering! You need to talk to me, if you're down." Her voice was raspy.

"Taehee, it's okay! I'm not a person, who talks about personal stuff or what's inside me. You don't need to worry about me." I said.

"But I am! Why did you do this?" She begged.

Not knowing what I should say, I looked away. I'm such a coward. Why can't I face my problem? I need to face myself. I need to stop doing this.

"Sometimes I feel so worthless. I feel so alone and dumb. Like nobody would need me. I feel bad that I still have feelings for Lucas." I sighed.

Why am I weak?

Why can't I be strong?

"But we need you! I know you for such a short time, but it feels like we know each other for years! And the boys need you too!"

I tried to smile.

"I know that and I'm so thankful for you and the boys, but sometimes I can't do something against it. Maybe I need help, but at the moment it's not that bad."

"We really like you and if you ever have these moments again, please call me. I will talk to you the whole night." She smiled.

This sentence felt like a big cup of chocolate. My heart started to feel warm. For the first time of my live I have something like a best friend.

Yes, I have the boys, but it's different with a girl. She understands my thinking more. She knows how hard it is to decide between boys.

"Thank you. This means so much to me."

Why are we crying this much? Is my period coming or what?

"We're like a waterfall. That's why I am not talking about my feelings." We both laughed.

"Do you want something to eat?" Taehee asked after a silence.

I nodded and we stood up. Walking to the kitchen we crossed again the wall with pictures.

Should I ask her, who they are?

"Taehee, who are the people on those pictures?" I asked curiously.

"My godmother and her 'big love', he left her for another woman. She never forgot him. This is her son, but I only saw him ten years ago in real life. I barely talk to my godmother." She answered.

"So this isn't you in the pictures? I thought that she looked like you." I responded.

A sad expression replaced her smile.

"Actually this is the first child of my godmother. She died in a car accident years ago. I think her son never really knew his sister, since he had another father than the girl. Godmother never talked about her, there were only these pictures. I think she was too hurt. Her 'big love' left her after her death. "

"I can't think of any pain that is that hard. First her child and then her love, I feel so sorry for her."

"My mother said that she got crazy after this. She never was the same as before."

We both stopped smiling and slowly started to walk to the kitchen. I tried to light up the mood.

"What do we eat? We can cook something delicious. I could eat a ship now."

We decided to cook some Italian spaghetti. I didn't cook for such a long time and it felt somehow relieving.

Being full we lay down in our beds. We opened the window and we could hear the raining from outside. We didn't say a word and just relaxed.

The drops were lulling and my eyes started to shut. I was about to sleep when my phone started to vibrate. Who calls at this hour?

I saw Jaemin's face on the display and decided to ignore it, even though a warm feeling filled my body. I'm not ready to talk to him.

The vibrating stopped and soon messages plopped up.

Jaemin:
(Y/N), where are you? I want to talk to you.
Why aren't you answering your phone?
I'm afraid that something will happen to you. (Y/N), please call me.
If you're not answering in 5 minutes I will locate your phone!!!!

What is wrong with this guy? I heard Taehee's steady breathing and walked outside. I dialled his number and waited for him to pick up.

"Oh god (Y/N), I thought something happened!" Jaemin screamed in my ear.

"Jaemin, chill please, I'm with Taehee-"I heard footsteps and suddenly a weird smell filled my nose.

My eyes got heavy and I slowly slid to the ground. I heard Jaemin calling my name, but I couldn't respond. I got lifted up and my consciousness left me.