× FLIRTY || Jaemin ×

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!!!SELF HARM!!!

(Y/N) P.O.V

"Did you find out anything about the messenger? I don't know the number." I asked Lucas at the breakfast.

"Sadly no, but I will protect you. Don't forget that we're friends after all." He grabbed my hand and pressed it.

Yes, only friends, nothing more. What was I thinking? That he would still love me?

We didn't talk another word and a few minutes later we stood awkwardly at the door. We were about to bid goodbye as a known boy walked in our direction.

Jaemin.

He had a big smile on his lips until he saw us together in front of the door. He raised an eyebrow and opened his mouth to ask.

"What is he doing here?" Jaemin's voice was cold.

What should I tell him? He would be disappointed to know that I don't trust him in such moments.

"I had a few things from (Y/N) and brought them back." Lucas quickly answered.

Would Jaemin believe this? It's a school day and Lucas could have easily brought them back after school. Please don't ask.

"How nice of you Lucas." A big fake smile appeared on Jaemin's face.

"Uhm yes, well I'm going now. See you later in school." Lucas mumbled.

He got out of my apartment and didn't spare a glance at Jaemin. Being in my pyjama I pulled Jaemin into my flat and closed the door.

"Slow down babe, we have enough time later." Jaemin smirked.

I rolled my eyes and got into my bed. What is he doing here? I heard his steps following me and didn't even look up. I felt that my bed moved down and a fragrance filled my nose.

"I know that I'm irresistible, but isn't this a bit fast?" His voice was full of amusement.

"What do you want Jaemin?" My voice was hoarse.

"I just wanted to walk with you to school. You're so lonely on your way." He patted my head.

What did I do to deserve such an angel?

Why can't I stop thinking about Lucas?

Lifting my head I smiled at him. He replied his bright and stunning smile and my heart started to beat faster. What would happen if I kiss him?

I sat down on my bed and now I was in front of Jaemin. I opened my mouth to say something, but I closed it again.

Jaemin tilted his head.

"What do you want to say?" His voice was soft.

I closed the gap between us and grabbed his hand. Breathing in I looked into his eyes. His dark orbs were reflecting the light in a few brown shades, but in some points they looked nearly black.

I held my breath and bend over to kiss him, but a centimetre before our lips touched he backed off.

Why? Why can't he love me? Why can't I love him?

"I know that you're not over Lucas yet, so babe, take it slow." His voice was nearly dull.

He smiled a weak smile and got up.

"Go get ready for school; we don't have much time left."

Trying not to cry I nodded. I need to stay strong. I need to stop loving Lucas.

The day was over and totally exhausted I entered my home. I decided to call my mother, to tell her that I would come over in three weeks. She said that I was being missed by my father and her. Smiling I answered her that I also miss them.

Walking into the shower I replayed the day.

Jaemin and Lucas didn't talk at all, but Lucas found his best friend in Renjun. I saw an unknown loud side of Renjun and couldn't stop smiling.

He cracked a few jokes and if we wouldn't have laughed, he would have choked us to death.

Chenle made the scary experience and said we should never stop laughing again. Slapping his arm out of amusement Taehee choked on her water. The day was a mess, but a funny one.

The most negative point was that Jaemin didn't talk at all with me.

I hope I didn't hurt him. Why can't I be a normal person? Why am I such a bad person? No wonder Lucas left me. I do dumb things.

Turning down the heat of the water I felt the cold water running down my spine. Numbed I grabbed my shaver and attached it to my underarm.

Seeing the white ground getting red I didn't feel a thing.

I just started to cry and slid down the wall of my shower. The cold water numbed my skin and the cuts easily washed out.

Why can't I die? Nobody could harm me, I wouldn't hurt other people.

My life is a total mess and I don't have the power to fight for a better one. Stroking over my fresh scars I wished they would start to bleed again.

Maybe the blood loss would make me weak and I would start to sleep forever.

Sitting there for minutes I thought about my life, about the threat, about my heart.

Finally getting to my mind I stood up and heated up the water again. My muscles started to relax and I could let go some of my dark thoughts.

Walking out of the shower I grabbed my towel and dried myself.

Suddenly the light started to flicker and I let out a light scream. Looking out of my window I saw that it was storming and I immediately calmed down.

Dressing myself in a short green dress I walked into my kitchen. Covering the cuts with some plasters I let out a sigh. The light started to flicker again and I swear that I saw a shadow moving.

Shaking I grabbed my phone and called Lucas. I sat between my cooking isle and the kitchen sink.

"Lucas I think someone is here. I'm afraid." I whispered.

"I'm on my way, but it will take me a few minutes. Activate the app; I will be able to follow your doings." His voice was steady.

"Please be fast." I nearly cried.

The line abruptly ended and I called Lucas for a few times, but he didn't pick up. Did something happen to him? I opened the app and saw that his point is coming nearer to my flat.

Breathing ripped me out of my thoughts and I pressed myself against the kitchen isle.

I looked up and saw a tall man standing in all black on my right side. He bended down and picked me up on my neck.

"Watch out little girl. I'm only here to warn-"The man started.

"Let her go you bastard." A voice disrupted him.

Trying to look to the side I saw Jaemin standing there with a known dark expression. His eyes glistened and something lay in his hand.

Was this a gun?

The man let me fall down and I hit my head hard. I didn't hear the next words. My sight was getting black and with all my power I tried to let my eyes open, but they didn't obey me.

I heard noises, but soon everything turned down.

I fainted.

The last thing I saw was Lucas standing next to Jaemin and a girl.

Sorry for the late update ;-;