GTFO

Chap 29: Call (2)

Jeno's POV

Taking a deep breath, I started off, "Jaemin.. If you could never return my feelings, why did you lead me on? Why did you make me think you actually liked me? It would have been much easier if you rejected me completely before I could even fall for you.." My eyes started watering again. Renjun turned to face me with a shocked expression. He immediately turned to Jaemin for a response, wide-eyed and expecting Jaemin to answer me.

"I.. I'm sorry." Was his only response.

"No one has ever made me cry as much as you did, I hope you know that." I got up and walked into the toilet, trying to calm myself down before my sadness turns into anger.
Anger mostly at myself for being an idiot.

Splashing my face with water, I tried to drown away my frustration and looked into the mirror to see my face sown with despair. I sat down in the empty tub and rested my face on my knees as I closed my eyes, and let my thoughts swallowed me up.

My attention diverted back to reality when I heard someone knock on the door. Getting up, I wiped my face with the back of my hand and opened it.

Mr. Cha was holding a bowl of hot soup and grinned sheepishly.
"I hope you're still hungry, I forgot about this soup just now."

My gaze fell onto the boy who was held in Renjun's embrace while sobbing. I felt guilty for my words but chose to keep my silence. I grabbed the bowl and muttered a soft 'Thank You' before walking out the room and down the stairs. Sitting down at the dining table, I slowly sipped onto the soup when I heard the chair beside me being dragged outwards.

"You okay?" Mr. Cha asked after seating himself down.
"I don't know what happened, but, both you and Jaemin seem to be very upset about something. Do you want to talk about it?"

"I don't know.. Mr. Cha..
It's just that he hurt my feelings, but it's okay. I'll try to get over it."

"Ah, you know.. sometimes it's okay to not get over someone. It's perfectly okay to hold feelings for them although you know they will never return them back. And it's okay to have the constant hope for them to come back to you one day with the same feelings you hold in your heart."
His voice broke and got softer as his smile slowly fell.
"But, it's also okay to never see them again."

I felt my heart being clutched in my chest as those words entered my ears.

Mr. Cha sighed before getting up.
"I'm going upstairs to give Jaemin some soup, too. Talk it out, that's the best way."

"I tried, he just won't give me a proper answer."

"Then, try again and again until you get one." He said as he took a bowl and walked up the stairs.

I sat silently staring at the table as I let my thoughts overwhelm me.
What am I supposed to do?

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Jaemin's POV

"Hey, do you really not like him back?" Renjun asked with his eyebrows raised when I was able to calm down a little. Jeno's words hit my heart really forcefully and I couldn't bare myself to see him like that.

"No.."

"That doesn't seem too convincing. Did something happen?"

"Yeah.. If I say it, will you promise me that you won't tell Jeno?" I attempted to wipe away the tears which were constantly dripping from my eyes.

He slowly nodded his head with a questioning look.

"My parents saw the video." I looked down at the bed sheet, trying to fight back my tears.