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Chap 34: Uncertainty

Jaemin's POV

I felt my eyelids closing while Jeno had his arms around my waist, pulling me closer to him. I was sitting sideways on one of his thigh as we cuddled for each other's body heat in the cold weather. He placed his hand on my head and directed it towards his shoulder for me to rest on it.

"Sleep. You must be tired."

"Mm~ you too." I snuggled my face deeper into his neck as he tightened his grip around me.

"You know, I honestly thought I lost you. That I'd never see you again."

"I won't let that happen."

"You almost did, though." He flashed me his sad smile which shattered my heart in an instant. I looked down at my hands and rested the side of my head onto his head.

"I didn't want to."

He gently cupped my face and brought it near to his and placed a small kiss on my cheek. After seeing how red I had gotten, he burst into a fit of cute giggles.

"D-don't do that again." I placed my hand on the spot he had just kissed and saw him pouting.

"Why not? Wait, have I asked you to be my boyfriend already?"

Wide-eyed, I shook my head in expectancy.

"Okay." He hummed and turned away to lean his head onto my shoulder.

After a few minutes of silence and me feeling upset at him for not asking the question yet, I decided induce the first move.
Fuck it, if you won't ask, I'll do it myself.

"Hey, Jeno~" Tapping his head to get him to face me, I cupped his face and squished his cheeks around.
He had an eyebrow raised in confusion at what I was doing, so I decided to peck his lips.

Pulling his right arm towards me, I used my finger to draw hearts all the way from his wrist to his bicep. I leaned down to his arm and placed a kiss on each imaginary heart I drew.

However, with every kiss, I found myself wanting to chicken out with the nervousness that was being accumulated in my stomach.

Closing my eyes, I turned to lean my forehead onto his as I wrote down on his hand slowly so that he would be able to make out the words.

I love you. Be my boyfriend?

I heard him chuckle and opened my eyes to see his beautiful eyesmile. Separating our foreheads, I felt as though I would implode after my first ever attempt in asking someone out.

"You could have just asked me directly."

Shaking my head, I leaned my forehead back onto his as I anticipated his answer.

But, before he could answer, it dawned onto me what I was doing and I placed my finger onto his lips to stop him from saying anything.
He tilted his head and frowned at my sudden change in expression, his hand reaching up to hold my hand.

"Is something wrong?"

"Yeah."

"What is it?"

"Can I tell you in the morning? I feel too overwhelmed thinking about it."
He nodded his head understandingly and smiled.

"It's okay, don't worry about it. Just promise me you'll tell me eventually." I could sense the disappointment in his voice as he said that. I wanted to tell him everything, to just get it all off my chest right then.

"I will."
Even though I might break down, I know he'll be there to fix me back up.
But, right now, he's broken himself.

Hugging him as tight as I could, I placed my head back onto his shoulder after taking a deep breath.
Shutting my heavy eyelids, I wanted to just enter my utopic dreamland with Jeno's hold giving me comfort.

"Guys! PIZZA!?!" Renjun burst through the door, snapping me out of the calm sleeping state I was just about to enter.

"What?" Jeno turned to question him when he realised Renjun turned away from us to avoid looking in our direction.

"Mr. Cha is making pizza and asked you both to come downstairs after you're done doing whatever you're doing right now." He turned around on his heels after opening back the door to leave.

"Oh, okay."

"Renjun."
I called out to him, to which he turned around and raised his eyebrows.
"Thank you, you know, for everything." I smiled towards him to show my gratitude for his help to gather my courage to fix things with Jeno. He brought his lips into a thin-lined smile and nodded his head.

"Sure."

"Okay, let's go." I hopped off Jeno's lap and walked ahead as my hunger pangs were still present and stronger than ever.

Mr. Cha was carrying the tray with the Pizza out to the dining table when he noticed us and smiled.

"I hope you boys are hungry."

"I sure as hell am, starving even." I took a seat at the dining table as he walked towards the kitchen, chuckling, to grab some drinks. Jeno sat beside me and caressed my hand which was resting on the table. My heart was being squeezed in my chest under his gentle touch as we waited for Mr. Cha to return.
Everyone was enjoying the night-time silence which had its own calming aura but I could sense Renjun's stares towards us every once in a while. I was about to question him on this when Mr. Cha came back with the drinks, so I made a mental note on asking him later.

"Okay! I have sprite, pepsi, orange juice, apple juice and coke. I swear Renjun, if you make any drug related jokes, I'm throwing you out into the rain for the rest of the night."

Silence.

He didn't retort back anything and was just staring at the table blankly.

"Renjun?" I tapped on the table beside his hand.

"Huh?" He looked up, surprised and clueless about why everyone was looking at him. He was fidgeting in his seat and looked like he was about to start crying when Mr. Cha grabbed his arm and dragged him into the kitchen.

I turned to look at Jeno, who was just as confused as I was.
He nodded his head reassuringly as if to tell me that Renjun would be fine and placed his hand on mine.

"I wonder what happened. Renjun didn't seem like himself just now, I really hope he's okay."

"Yeah, me too." Jeno reached out to grab a slice of pizza before I slapped his hand away from the tray.

"Have some patience and wait for them to return." I frowned while he pouted and slumped back into his chair.

"I've been waiting for a lot of things recently. Cut me some slack, already."

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Renjun's POV

"What's wrong? You seem completely out of it." Mr. Cha sat down on the stool as he questioned me.

"It's nothing, I'm just a little upset."

"Over what? What happened?"

"Do you remember the conversation we had a while ago..?" I rested my head on the counter as I turned my head sideways to face him.

"Yeah? What about it?" He had a puzzled look at the sudden mention of the previous topic. His eyes widened and his mouth went into an 'o' shape as if he realised something.
"Don't tell me.. the boy you like is.. Jaemin?" He asked slowly, unsure of the answer he was expecting.

"No."

"Then? Wait. Renjun.. is it Jeno?"

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