Red ⇢ Sam Winchester (sequel to Half-Blood) | "complete"

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Elliot

"You and Sam, you've been looking at each other different lately," Castiel came into my room without even knocking, just like he always used to. "The way you used to...Before you left."

I looked above my laptop and at him, "Thank you for knocking and respecting my privacy, Cas. And also, I didn't leave, I was kidnapped, remember?" I gave him a sarcastic smile, "And I have no idea what you're talking about. Sammy and I have been looking at each other the exact same. Nothing has changed."

Castiel gave me that look, the one he always gives me when he doesn't really believe what I'm telling him, "Elliot you know I'm not an idiot. I know everything now, remember?"

"Ellie, and I'm not calling you an idiot, I'm saying there's nothing between Sam and I. He tortured me, remember? You don't really just...come back from that." I shifted in my seat a little, uncomfortable. I didn't want to talk about something like this.

"If you won't tell me, I guess I'll just have to ask Sam myself." Castiel turned and left before I even to the chance to tell him no. Of course Castiel would go and do this. Instead of focusing on our real issues at hand, Asmodeus and Gabriel, he chooses to focus on the fact that Sam and I seem to 'look' at each other differently. What does that even mean?

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"Any particular reason Cas came busting into my room asking about the way we look at each other?" Sam came up from behind me while I was doing dishes. I figured this would happen, Cas can't keep his nose to himself.

"I don't know. He asked me about it too," I kept my eyes on the dishes, "I told him there was nothing new in the way we look at each other. We've been too focused on all of this end of the world apocalypse shit to be worried about each other in any way more than hunting companions."

I could feel Sam shift behind me a little bit, "Really?" His voice had a twinge of hurt in his voice, but he recovered from it, "Yeah, I uh, I told him the same thing. Nothing new about the way we look at each other." He walked away before I could say anything else. The dishes in the sink suddenly didn't bother me anymore, as I lost interest in doing them. I decided rather to just be by myself, in my section of the room.

Sam and I used to be beyond close, and every time I think about it I get more and more upset. Before I left for Hell we were dating, everything was fine. We were both content with our lives together. Bobby always told us love never lasts in a hunters life, and we chose to take the chance anyway. I guess this is what we get.

I placed my head in my hands and sighed, "Things can never be the same again, can they?"

"What happened between you and Sam?" It was Jack's innocent sounding voice that asked, I knew he wouldn't know anything of it, and I didn't want to bother telling him about all of it, but I also knew that I should.

I smiled a little, "Long before you were even a thought in Lucifer's mind, and just barely after I met the Winchesters, Dean went to Hell. While Dean was in Hell, Sam and I got really close. Like, really, really, close." I laughed, thoughts running through my mind, "Once we got Dean back, things changed back to before but there was still something, something between Sam and I. This is before they knew about me being half demon, and after they found out I escaped with the Archangel Gabriel, your uncle. He told me about Sam's remaining feelings. It made me realize mine had never really gone away, either. So after the three of us met back up, and they were no longer trying to threaten my safety, Sam and I briefly spoke about it and we were dating, I guess." Saying that outlaid really threw me, it had felt like forever. "But once I was sent to Hell, I don't know. Sam and I haven't talked about it, I mean we never really separated you know? But he literally tortured me. Dumped holy water over me and beat the shit out of me. I don't know how to stop seeing that Sam, the Sam that did that to me, every time I look at him." I felt like I as going to cry, it was the first time I said all of that out loud.

"You and Sam dated?" Jack's confused look made me laugh a little, "I didn't think Sam was interested in women, that always seemed like Dean's thing." He thought a moment, "Have you thought about asking him?"

"A lot easier said than done," I looked at my hands, "I never have the chance to tell him. I don't want to bring it up around Dean or Castiel. It's kind of a one-on-one talk that we need to have. And I never am alone around Sam."

peri

so basically i finished s14
and now im starting over from
s1 and wow they look so little
compared to s14 sam and dean
enjoy this uwu