Yurrio cuddled his neck into otabek while hugging him. The taller pat his soft hair kissing his forehead.
"You give such good hugs" yuri said as he held him a bit tighter. Otabek never said much but the scilence was good. It was always good to be in your lovers arms, that is, until you wake up.
Self harm and insanity warning. This is confusing but hopefully everyone can figure out what's going on.
Yuri woak up shaking and light headed "otabek...otabek why'd you leave? Please stay..." he walked into the other room his balance unsteady he constantly looked over his shoulder to make sure no one was there. Yet he wanted him to be there so badly. He walked into the shower and leaned up againts the wall "I want him so bad." He slid his hand down his skin imagining it as otabek. The hot water hitting his chest burning it "don't tease me like this it hurts!" He yelled out "it hurts my skin is burning!" But its what he wanted. What otabek wanted.
"Soon yuris hand turned the water to icy cold water. It felt good on him until it went numb.
The numbness felt good. Just like his head unless he was with his beloved otabek. His mind pounded and he screamed out holding his ears "why can't I gave you why can't I have you I love you so much your all I want why do you hate me so much please love me I want your love it's all I need I need it to survive my chest feels like it's caving in oatbek please!"
Yuri sat in the tub of water for hours just looking up at the wall. The only thing snapping him out of it was his phone ringing from the other room.
"Oatbek." He whispered walking out of the bathroom
He picked up his phone to see it was Yakov
"Is he there?" Yuri asked into the phone like a desperate puppy
"Is who here?! All I know is that your joy and you better have a good excuse!"
"I'm sick." He replied coldly "is otabek there?"
"No? Why would he be in Russia?"
Yuri hung up the phone laughing at himself for being so stupid. Why is he so dumb?
"Otabekie... I want you here so bad." He Walked into the kitchen turning on the stove. Once it was hot enough he stuck the side of his hand into the flames. He screamed and rushed to the sink running cold water on his new scar
"This is for you. My body is yours I no longer own it."
