Blossoms

He Did What I Didnt Expect

I woke up feeling sticky due to sweat. I didn't move I didn't feel like it. I looked around me and say my phone in my back pocket of last night's shorts. I was about to get my phone but then I realised Aidan's arm was rapped around me. I'm so glad he was asleep so he couldn't see me blush.

Then he started to move so I quickly pretended I was still knocked out.

He slowly lifted his arm and drew back. Then all of a sudden he kissed me on the cheek then he left the room. I lay perfectly still until he left. Then I just started freaking out. I couldn't believe what had just happened. He just kissed me. Was he still drunk ? No he would be hung over by now. The worst part about it was that sinking feeling. The feeling that I liked it. I think I'm gay...

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After Aidan got out of the shower I left. I couldn't face him after that, I was too afraid. I went home to find my mum and my sister making waffles.

"Hey sweetheart do you want some waffles ?"
"Yes please mum."

She didn't see the solum look on my face which I am grateful for. Mum then put two waffles on my plate and gave me the can of whipped cream. I put a little bit of whipped cream in every indent in the waffle, I'm meticulous like that. Once Lilly (my sister) had wolfed down her waffles, she flung her bag over her shoulder and pronounced she was leaving.

"Where you going Lilly ?" I asked.
"To my friends house, we are gonna have a sleepover."
"Okay be safe!" I exclaimed as she opened the door.
"I will !"
And with that she was off.

Me and mum had a good chat after that but my thoughts were clouded by what had happened. I sorta guessed I was always different. All my mates getting girlfriends and I just didn't. It was strange but now I know for sure. What if mum doesn't accept me ? What if Lilly hates me ? So many questions.

I went up stairs and got in the shower. As I'm sure with many others, shower time is thinking time. This time I didn't enjoy it. It was all the eventualities that could happen. All the things that could go wrong.

I got out of the shower and wrapped a towel around my waist and looked at the mirror. I saw a broken man and a conflicted boy. I saw a puppet of the way people want me to be. Or was it all in my head ? Was it just something I could put in the back of my mind and forget about ?

I really hoped so but I very much doubted it. I had to tell mum. I needed to.