tragedy of existence(mid night poetry part 2)

timeless

Timeless 

Seconds to minutes

There's nothing to show for my on-going patience
All I seem to cling on to is this futile existence

I'm slowly succumbing to the dreadful silence
Too long have I been dependent on hopeful emotions
Nothing to lose, and nothing to gain, thus everything is pointless
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Hours turn into days

I helplessly idle by as life itself starts to decay away 
I throw away the memories of yesterday

Those special moments I held onto; all the effort I gave
I thought it was all for something because it could never have been replaced
Though I only have myself to blame, as I continue to allow everything be disgraced
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Months seem like years

I've parted with all that felt dear
The outcome of this solitude is fierce

I can't help but fill the empty lands with my tears
New oceans shall arise and attempt to drown out the despair
But if it does not succeed then I will remain inside this unknown fear 
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Forever lasts an eternity

In this broken state I shall remain here, eternally
Never again shall I experience any form of sympathy

For I deserve anything besides pity
As damaging as it sounds- it's pure reality
And I know for one, I accept whatever comes to me
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I have finally become ageless

My self-hatred is now painless
Because I still have hope in being faithless

No will to live, and no will to die; I'm just too careless
I've given up on the light, and I've also gave up on the darkness
So I'm going to endure this, an era where my suffering remains timeless