tragedy of existence(mid night poetry part 2)

ashes of tomorrow

Ashes Of Tomorrow

I can destroy what I create

If I really, and truly wanted to

I can light these feelings ablaze

If I didn't want anymore support from you

I barely stop myself time and time again

I realize there's a sense of cruelty in all of us

It's just that feeling, everything might be in vain

When tempted at breaking down those barriers of trust

To jeopardize all of the triumphs 

I want to be the one who is blamed

The fire will reach the sky, and become my guidance

I want to be swallowed by my own inner, selfish flames

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I sit behind the scenes of my friendships

Alone, with a fake smile on my face

That old feeling of loneliness is tempting 

Cold, but the embers will soon burn me away

Ashes paint the sky / I'm the phoenix at fault

My flames roar as I cry / As all hope finally falls

I need to get back at myself

Delivering a fiery vengeance

I know that I don't deserve anyone else

As all of the bridges simultaneously start burning

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I wanted to erase what I made

And I tried to really, and truly mean it

But I know that I'm not an advocate for hate

I just would rather hurt myself than have you involved in this

I remain remorseful over the feelings that I hid

Ashamed, while my loved ones still continued to help

I know that my actions will be hard to forgive

Relieved, because my isolation has failed

I couldn't put out the fires that I lit, once it had begun

I will try my hardest to make my wrong's right

I believe a better tomorrow will come

Out from the ashes, we shall rise

"A true friend will never give up, even when you think that you're not good enough."