Life as a fangirl

Chapter 18 - Fuck me

Chapter 18 - Fuck me

I am currently sitting at home reading. While crying my eyes out, and for the first time its not because of the book but rather, Adam. This is pathetic, I should not be crying over a guy I was dating two days. But here's the thing I failed to tell you all... I really liked him. Yes y'all knew that but what I mean is maybe it was longer and bigger than you guys realized... Please don't hate me. Also please don't get a perverted thought when I said ' longer and bigger. ' Its 12:15 in the morning. Adam and the gang should just be getting home from the fair.

I wonder if Adam realized I left...

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Our doorbell rings. Now who would want to be here this late?

What if its a murderer?

Then I will ask to take a selfie with him before he murders me.

Really?

No! Of course not you stupid subconscious. I would get a bat and show him who's boss.

No you won't. You will holler for Ethan.

Nuh-uh! He's not even home yet... gosh.

Maybe you should answer the door.

I mumble incoherent words. Damn subconsciouses. Who needs em? I run down the stairs and open the door. Ugh, its worse than a murderer.

It's Adam. He is wearing a dopey smile.

He probably got lucky.

" Hey Mel, I... " He didn't get to finish because I slammed the door in his face and run up the stairs. I don't feel like dealing with people. Especially him.

I run up the stairs and bury my face in the covers. I can't believe he had the nerve to come and talk to me... call me Mel... Look maybe I'm overreacting. But honestly you do not know the pain of liking someone who is still in love with their ex. Words cannot describe.

I feel my bed dip beside of me. I don't have to look up to know its Kat. We do this. If one of us sense the other is hurt, we just come and lay in silence together. But not tonight. Tonight I need to rant.

" Kat, I'm about to rant to you. " I start, still not looking up. " Adam, tonight was our second date and I was so excited. We was having a great time until his ex, Ruby, came up to him. From the moment they hugged I could tell they missed each other. Yes, I will admit I felt jealous. Because he has never looked at me the way he looked at her tonight. So after that, she stayed with us the entire night. Adam would play games and win prizes and give them to her. He ignored me for the rest of the night and only talked to her. " By now I have tears streaming down my face and my voice is cracked. " And that made me really upset. Our date turned into theirs. I finally broke when they were talking by the restroom. He was asking her why she broke up with him and that they could've made long distance work and worst of all... He told her that she was better than me. " I finish my rant with a sob.

Kat doesn't say anything. " Melinda... "Someone chokes out. I look up and Adam is on the other side of the bed. I gasp and cover my crying face. I can't believe it was him the entire time. Should have locked the door. Crap, now he is going to tell me how pathetic I am... Adam takes my hand from my face and holds them in his. I don't like the best it is spreading throughout me, so I take my hands away. " Melinda. You don't understand, " He starts, but I cut him off.

" I don't understand? Are you serious? Please since I'm in contempt of understanding why don't you explain it? " I say while glaring at him.

" Melinda. Stop. Being. So. Dramatic. " Adam says sternly.