Pearl : White Diamond's

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When Pink Diamond disappeared, all were saddened. All except for White Diamond. White Diamond became enraged. She simply didn't show it. The other diamonds and pearls were able to notice but most of their subjects didn't. They assumed she was sad like everyone else. White Diamond noticed that Pink Diamond had become rather rebellious and White was not sure where the drive was coming from. Instead of asking Pink, White only observed. White would ask me to leave at night to follow Pink and report back important information I would gather.

I never felt good about doing that.

I know I am her Pearl and I am supposed to do everything I am asked to do but that does not mean I don't feel terrible about being given such tasks - terrible about the fact that I do not have free will. The free will to say no. The will to say, I do not agree with this like the other pearls. I've noticed how their diamonds treat them. Not like my diamond.

One night when White asked me to stalk Pink again, I found out a lot of information. I arrived at Pink's quarters but Pink nor her Pearl were present. My Diamond ordered me not to come back unless I found out new information. So I stayed until they returned. They were gone for quite some time but I had no choice but to stay and wait for hours. When they finally returned, they came back from the warp pad. Pink's Pearl was with a strange-looking gem? A large woman with a light complexion who was barefoot and wearing a long white dress. In mere moments, she changed into Pink Diamond?! I quickly covered my mouth to make sure no one heard me. Why would Pink Diamond take such a form?

I was not sure what they were talking about so I did my best to get closer.

"Thank you, Pearl, for taking me to the kindergarten. It was so much fun interacting with them and they didn't have a clue who I was!"

"You're welcome my Diamond but I don't think we should continue doing stuff like that. You have responsibilities to uphold that I have to assist you with."

"You're right, Pearl. But wouldn't it be so much fun if we could go all the time!? If we could leave here and it could be just us two! Free from this place!?"

"My Diamond, we shouldn't speak of such things."

They continued speaking to one another but I could no longer follow without being noticed. I had no choice but to go back to White with the information I have. I can only hope that it was enough.

"My diamond," I said as I made a diamond shape with my hands over my chest until she gave me attention - a signal given to me to let me know I can speak now.

"My diamond, I have returned with some new information. Pink Diamond has gone to the kindergarten with her pearl appearing in a different form. It seems she wants to have fun and may think the way to do so is by taking this strange form. Almost like a human except larger."

"I see. Thank you my pearl. You may retire for the night."

"Thank you my diamond," I said bowing to her until she left to retire in the bedroom. I felt extreme relief. There have been times when she was violent because she felt that I didn't gather enough information. It was not my fault and I have always done the best I could for my diamond. I always hoped she would notice or maybe try to understand. That was usually not the case. I walked up the stairs by the master bedroom where my diamond resides to make it to my room. It is small and cramped. My diamond thought I did not need a spacious room like the one downstairs. I thought I did since I have spent a plentiful amount of time here. 

I do not have the power to say otherwise.

I wish I did. I wish I could stand up to her and tell her how I really feel. How she really makes me feel. How I did not understand the reasoning for her to treat me this way when none of the other diamonds treat their pearls so poorly as she does. It is almost as if the other diamonds care about their pearls.

How come my diamond does not care about me?