Just Coworkers| • Shayne Topp •

Chapter Twenty-Nine

Rosimar's P.O.V

Two weeks later...

"You want me to do what?" There is no way this is true.

"Rosimar, I just think the fans deserve to know the truth. You hide so many things. Even Reina wants you to talk about your story." I looked at him. This was the first time in a while that I had felt fear. Shayne was holding me when Ian was telling me all this.

"But, it is so intense Ian. I don't know." He looked at me with pleading eyes. I sighed.

"Fine. I will tell them my story."

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Before I get there though, lets talk about these past two weeks. So Reina now works for Smosh. I was so excited when Anthony called asking me if she could work for them. Also Noah and Reina are starting to talk more than a friend way. That caused Noah and I to be a slight bit distant, but it caused me to get closer to Shayne. We were just close friends, and my feelings for the boy had yet to leave. I needed help with my heart. I finally got my hands on all the sticky notes that Shayne would leave for me at my office everyday when I was in a coma. They were all so sweet. Some were poems that made my heart leap in excitement. I liked that man so much. I still stayed up late wondering when he would admit his feelings for me. I don't understand why he is dragging it on for so long. I mean what chapter are we on? I lost track. Shayne still isn't budging.

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"Are you ready?" Sarah asked. I breathed in deeply. I was so nervous. I have never opened up to the level that I would be doing in a few moments. Everyone from Smosh was behind the camera. Even people from smosh games.

"Hi everyone." I sighed. "So today this will be a heart to heart conversation about me. About what I have been through in my twenty years of life. This is hard for me to talk about because a lot of these things, no one knows about. I am sorry in advance if I become emotional." I breathed in deeply. Shayne was standing right behind the camera. He gave me a reassuring smile.

"So, I was the first born from two children. You guys have already met my sister, Reina. Some of these things that I will be saying, even she doesn't know about." I looked down at my ring and played with it to calm my nerves. "My parents were a happy couple. They loved each other dearly, but complications started to get the best of them. When I was three, Reina was born. After the pregnancy, my mother had gotten very stressed. She thought that the only way to feel better was to have that high. She became addicted to many drugs. I, only being three, I did not understand. My father tried to get her off of it, but he started doing it as well. He just didn't do it as much as my mother. A few years pass, I was seven. Reina was only four. My mother had taken too many of those stupid drugs. She died of an overdose. I was the one who found her body. I was pretty mature for my age so I understood that she was dead because of the drugs." I looked behind the camera. They were all looking at me in pity. I hated when people did that. Reina looked at me confused. She didn't know about Mother dying from drugs. She thought mother died of sickness.

"After mother died, father went bonkers. He started to drink a lot more. He started to do a lot more drugs. He would get out of control. I realized that I had to take care of Reina. I would lock her in her room, when father would get out of control. He would beat me. I remember that there were nights when he would be extra furious, and he would take the bottles of liquor and smash them against whatever surface. Then he would take the glass and cut my skin. I have many scars that I cover with makeup. I didn't cover them this time for you guys to see." I peeled back my sleeve and showed my scars to the camera. I pulled up my shorts and showed the ones on my thighs. Then I lifted my t-shirt to show the ones on my stomach. Then, I turned around to show the ones I had on my back. Bozey, Courtney, Olivia, Keith, and Noah were crying behind the camera. Sarah was nearly bawling. Shayne's eyes were watering.

"He kept beating me for years. Then one day, I was fifteen, he called me over to him in the living room. I told Reina to go outside that day. She played with her friends. Father was intoxicated out of his mind. He made me stand in the middle of the living room. I didn't react to anything that he said. I just did as I was told. He took out a gun. I remember looking at him dead in the eyes. He was expecting me to coward away, but I stayed put. I remember that when I looked at his eyes, and at his devilish smile, I would wonder if he was the devil himself." I looked at Shayne, who's face had tears rushing down. Everything had clicked right than and there for him. That night when he was trying to get me to open up. It was all flashing in my head.

"He then took the gun and pressed it against my temple. I just looked at him. He was getting even more angry. I remember thinking at the time that if he pulled the trigger, I would be happy. That I would pull it for him. That whatever the fuck was waiting on the other side was better than what I was living. Dying was easier." Reina was crying. She has never heard the full story. I didn't want her to know. "He then started to tap my head with the gun. He told me, 'What would you do if I told you that I was going to kill you?' I shrugged at him and he slapped me. I looked at him with the same level of tiredness. He looked at me and smiled. I was convinced that he was the devil. He then broke a glass bottle and picked up a piece of glass. He said to me, 'You can't go out without a little torture first.' He started to cut me. Which are the scars I have on my arms. He then took out the gun again and aimed it at my head. I was ready to go. I wasn't thinking about anything after that. Then he chuckled and slapped me again. He said, 'Killing you would be too easy.' Then he brought the gun to his mouth and shot himself. I didn't even flinch. I just stood there covered in blood. The puddle was growing around my feet. I wasn't sad. I wasn't happy. I just stood there. I looked at his dead body and wondered why I didn't feel sad that my father was gone." I shrugged and looked at Everyone. They all had tissues in hand. I was still holding up.

"After my father dying, I called the cops. They took my father and asked me what happened. I told him that I found him dead. After the cops were gone, I realized that I needed to take care of my little sister. That I had to find some kind of way to make money. I had realized that Reina was my only family. I started to steal candies and selling them. I needed more money so I ended up selling drugs to people. I didn't realize how dangerous it was to show up to these people alone. I would leave Reina at a neighbors house. I thought of him as a relative. Then, I would go out and sell drugs. One day, this guy I was selling some to, was acting stupid. I flipped out on him, and he told me that there were consequences for talking to him like that." I started to cry. I wiped my tears and looked down at my hands.

"That man. He forced me to do things I didn't want to. I never forgot that day. It was one of the worse days of my life." Boze gasped at the mention of the guy raping me. I inhaled before continuing.

"I did manage to finish school and when I turned eighteen I headed out here. I left Reina in Puerto Rico, so that when I was stable, I could bring her. After two years, I succeeded. That is my life in twenty minutes. I want you guys to take something from this. I want you guys to never give up. Life will reward you eventually. It took life twenty years to reward me. After everything I had gone through. Learn from your mistakes. Always be kind to people, even if they weren't so kind to you. Kindness is free, and can help so many people. Never forget about the people around you that help you get through most of your days. Most importantly, never forget where you came from. I love you all very much. Don't worry about me because time healed me. I am doing great now. I have the Smosh family who help me everyday. Never be scare to reach out for help. There is always going to be a person that loves you out there. Thank you for listening to me talk. I will see you in the next video. Goodbye."

"Cut!" Here is the moment of truth. Now everyone knows the real Rosimar.